Straykids One shot book

Why is it always me?

Ship: Felix x Seungmin
Triggers/Warnings: bullying, self-harm, suicide thoughts, etc

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Felix is a new student at JYP Nation. He found his best friend on his first day... or so he thought... until it turned out that his so-called best friend's behavior was having a negative effect on him. 

Felix entered his new school and walked through the almost empty school corridors looking for his classroom. He was able to get his books and all that earlier in order to be looking for his classroom. On his schedule it said '3rd floor, room no. 108.' And that's what he was looking for. He was on the third floor, but he couldn't find this stupid number, because after 107 it stopped and it came straight to 110. He looked around desperately and walked down the same corridor again, only to find himself stuck in the same dilemma as he had been for a long 15 minutes. And so he gave up, head down, walking down the hallway to sit down, hoping someone might help him. Because he had his head down, he didn't see a person rush into the hallway, so the two collided and he fell to the ground. 

Felix looked up in shock and looked another boy straight in the face. "I-I... I'm so sorry... I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking.. did you hurt yourself??" He asked in panic and helped the boy who also fell back to his feet. The still unknown boy smiled softly and said "It's fine.. nothing happened." Felix nodded and exhaled in relief. "Hey.. uhm... would it be possible for you to tell me where I can find room 108?" He asked the boy in front of him, who nodded and so Felix followed the boy. And the stupid room was so hidden that it's normal for new students NOT to find it right away!! Who built this school so stupid???? 

The lessons began and so he finally found out the name of the boy who had helped him and whom he wasn't supposed to walk into. His name was Wong Sunghee and he is now his first and best friend. He met Sunghee's other friends over lunch, who all seem pretty nice to him. And so he fell for the nastiest group in the whole school, and that's exactly what he has to feel a month later. It started with simple but hurtful comments like, "That outfit doesn't suit you." or "You look pretty fat in that.", "A little more make-up wouldn't hurt you.", "You look more feminine than any girl." And much more. As a result, Felix began to hurted himself more often and each time a little deeper, he ate less than usual because of Sunghee. After all, it's his first best friend. 

A month later it started again, causing him to collapse frequently from starving himself. And as you would expect from a best friend, he's by your side and he cares about you, but Sunghee just put Felix down even more, he said things like "Don't be such a slob!" or "You're just looking for attention and that's why you 'faint'." What Sunghee didn't know was that Felix grew up without parents. He was placed in an orphanage and the other children were more popular there than he was because he looked different from the others. It was just his freckles and his rather feminine figure. From that moment on, he covered up his freckles and always wore oversized clothes to hide his figure. 

This reached the highest level a few months later: bullying him with his friends. He humiliated him everywhere he could, a few examples would be the crowded school hallway, his own class, older students and so on. This became too much for Felix, so one day he tried to kill himself because he couldn't do it anymore. He tried everything to please Sunghee, but he realized too late that he was only being used and thus voluntarily made himself a victim. 

He disappeared into the restrooms at lunchtime and was about to finish with the final cut when a hand gently grasped his bladed hand. "Let me go! It's just one more cut and I'm free!!" He sobbed, but the stranger did exactly the opposite. In fact, it was the school psychologist who was told by some of the students what Sunghee was doing to them, mostly Felix by now. "Shhh... that's not a solution Felix... you don't make it any better... that's exactly what Sunghee wants to achieve... shhh... let it out... it's alright..." the man said and took the boy in his arms.