Straykids One shot book

Baby

Ship: Chan x Seungmin
Triggers/Warnings: little space (babyspace), anxiety, bullying, panic attack, violence

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Go to a new school they said. Then everything will be better and easier, they said. It'll change because you're new, they said. You can start over there, they said. Yeah.. and Seungmin believed it, he believed all that bullshit and now he's got this whole mess! 

He walked into the building in his white jeans and a baby pink hoodie with white shoes and his gray backpack. With all the looks, he lowered his head and walked down the hallway. Seungmin could feel every single look they were throwing his way, how their eyes followed him and judged him. And as you know, when your head is down you can't see where you're going and so the puppy-like boy ran straight into a couple of boys, lost his balance and fell to the ground. But what he didn't expect was that they all laughed at him and pointed with there fingers at him. Without thinking twice, he grabbed his bag, got up and ran down the hall in search of the restrooms. That's too many people and that's dangerous in this situation. 

You must be wondering why? I can tell you that. Seungmin is a little. If you're wondering what that means, here's a brief explanation that will hopefully answer all your questions: A little, which is taken out from the comping mechanism called little space, is a kind of stress reliever. But it also helps against trauma or anxiety. It's a way of being able to escape from the adult world, I call it that. The person, in the case its Seungmin, slips into another headspace. For example to a small child or a baby, of course he can also be a teenager, depending on which age he feels most comfortable with. And in this case it would be in the so-called babyspace, which in turn means that Seungmin can be between the ages of 0 and I'd say 3. Of course it's also younger, like Seungmin, he's in the range between 0 to 1 year.

But back to the actual happenings! Seungmin ran with tears in his eyes in the direction where he assumed the boy's toilet was located and was lucky with his guess, because after a few minutes of running he saw it. He ran even faster, yanked open the door, and stumbled inside. He dropped to the ground and started crying. But the thoughts in his head didn't make the situation any better for him and when he heard voices and footsteps coming closer and closer, he got up and rushed in one of the cabins, he put his hand over his mouth in hopes that the people those who come in don't hear him. 

"Do you know what everyone is talking about??? I don't understand anything anymore!" someone said. "Nah, I have no idea what they're laughing about. But I heard from the group of girls who always have something to gossip about that the newcomer is probably the cause of all the fuss." someone else said again. Yes and you can now guess what happens huh? Exactly, because the people were now talking about him in front of Seungmin, he was in full panic mode. He started hyperventilating, which is why the boys who were also in the restroom now noticed him, but the problem was, Seungmin locked himself inside the cabin and didn't react to what the boys were shouting. 

"Hey!! Are you okay?" - "Unlock the cabin. Otherwise we can't help you!" - "Hello? Please open the door!" They pleaded and begged, but Seungmin didn't really notice, within a few seconds he felt like he was underwater where everything is muffled, if not numb at a certain point. "Shit! Chan! Do you think you can climb in too him??" Without receiving an answer from Chan, said boy moved into the adjoining cubicle to get to the hyperventilating boy. He climbed over the partition, when he was with the boy, he unlocked the door and pulled the now unconscious boy out of the cabin. Together with his friends he tried to get the boy back to consciousness, which they managed, because Seungmin's eyes slowly fluttered open, but as soon as he looked into the pair of eyes, he panicked again, but the others acted quickly and calmed the boy down.