Don't push me off the edge.

Fifty two - Derek

She walked outside to a bench a little farther away from the opening. She sat down as far as she could towards one of the sides. I did the same as she did because she obviously didn't want to sit next to me. 

" Okay, just say everything you're mad at me about. I won't get angry I promise."

" Derek you lied to me! You made me think that there was actually someone out there who loved me! And you are afraid of me for fucks sake! You think I'm a monster! You obviously hate me and are afraid of-"

" I don't hate you at all. Not one bit."

" You still are afraid of me! You- I can't- I hate you! You just lied to my face! When I asked if you were afraid of me, the day I told you I was a witch, what did you answer?" She gulped.

" I said I wan't I will admit that was a lie but-"

" You just admitted you lied to me! What's this shit?"

" I lied to you, yes I did. But that moment I was still trying to get used to the fact you were a witch. For gods sake you paralyzed me! Do you think I wouldn't be just a little terrified? That moment was scary, it really was." I was surprised she didn't say anything yet.

" I will say I am a little scared of you. One of these days I feel like you're going to snap and lose it and just tear everything apart. Cause I know you can do that. And I'll say now I am a bit scared of you right now because your angry at me. And I'm scared you might do something you'll regret. But either way I still-"

" Don't even fucking say it."

" Emma," I say. " We don't need this." The simulation came in my head when she had the fireball. And when she burned me. I knew it wasn't real, but it felt too real.

" I-" She stopped herself over her sobs.

" I don't care what you say, but I still love you no matter what you think. I know you are insanely pissed at me right now but I didn't create the simulation. The only thing I thought about was the fact you were going to snap and kill people. I didn't want to think about but I just, did. And I'm so sorry for thinking that. I hope you know that I would still love you even if you did snap."

" I won't snap you fucking twat. I still control my mind. And I always will. But your thoughts and that simulation just made you more scared of me didn't they?"

" A little. I do indeed feel like you're going to hurt me any second now, but even if you did I-"

" Shush." Wow, that was cold. " I don't want you to be scared of me Derek," she wiped her tears away with her wrist. 

" I can't help that." I confess.

" But I wouldn't hurt you. I don't know why- I don't know why I thought about paralyzing you. I just wanted to show you that this was real. That I was really a Witch. I was an idiot and I know that. You can tell me I'm an idiot as much as you want I don't care. But I wouldn't hurt you out of all people." She calmed down. 

" I'm glad you won't hurt me, really I am. And I wouldn't hurt you either, hell I had a simulation of it. Did you watch it all?" I asked with a sigh.

" I got to the part when you said you were scared of me." She answered.

" Well, after I managed to calm myself down. I was taken to a grassy area and I had a gun in my hand and you told me to shoot. And sooner or later you said that if I wouldn't shoot you, you would shoot yourself. That's when I left." She brought her knees to her chest and buried her face in them.

" So what were you afraid of? Killing me?"

" You dying." I say.

" You shouldn't." She tightened her grip with her arms around her legs. " You're hearts pounding fast."

" Why wouldn't it?"

" Your scared" I was tired of this.

I scooted over next to her, pulling her closer to my side. 

" Let go."

" I'm comfortable right here." I said as I squeezed her closer to me. I loved someone I was afraid of. How is that even possible? I laughed at the thought. " Hey, can I ask you something?" I ask.

" What?" She says, sounding angry.

" Would you believe me if I said I still love you?" She says nothing. But through the little amount of her face that I can see, I can tell she's smiling.

" I don't know." She mumbles, I laugh.

" Want to get something to eat?" I say trying to remove her arms from her knees. When I managed that, she unwrapped the rest of herself. Standing up, i'm going to assume that's a yes.