Something More

Chapter 018

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These past few weeks, maraming nangyari. Nililigawan na nga ako ni Jared, and he's really sweet and a gentleman to me. Pero.. I don't know, I feel so guilty. Kasi hindi ko alam kung gusto ko ba talaga siya, o ginagawa ko lang siyang panakip-butas. Hindi naman mahirap magustuhan si Jared eh, pero bakit ganun? I still can't get over with Xander.

Xander.. news spread sa buong campus na sila na ni Marielle. And it was even confirmed by Xander himself, and all I could do is cry when nobody is looking. Siguro I deserve this kind of heartbreak dahil sa ginagawa ko kay Jared. Yes, I really do deserve this.

"Audrey, umuulan na oh. Halika, share na lang tayo sa payong." Jared opened his umbrella and held me close. I smiled at him and we walked together out of the campus. But on our way, may nakasalubong kaming we don't wanna even see.

"Hey, ang sweet niyo naman." Marielle said. Her arms, as usual, are hook on Xander's. Share din sila sa payong, but compare sa amin ni Jared, they look just so sweet. 

Lumapit sila sa amin and gusto ko nagkatinginan kami ni Jared. Gusto ko sanang lumayo sa kanila, pero I can't. Baka may mahalata pa si Marielle na there's something.
"Punta tayong coffee shop." she offered, and I was about to say no when Jared nodded. I gave him a look, yung look na 'ano-ka-ba-bakit-ka-pumayag' look. Jared just smiled at me na para bang alam niya yung nasa isip ko. I just sighed in defeat, and off we go to the coffee shop.

I knew this would be awkward for us, or for Xander and me. Si Marielle lang yung nagsasalita, and si Jared naman nod lang nang nod and I just smile at Marielle. Pero I can't help but to glance at Xander, who is spacing out at sobrang tahimik. I noticed there's really something wrong with Xander nowadays.. na he really changed a lot, hindi na siya yung dating Xander. He's so quiet and he's hard to read.
"And actually, tomorrow na yung first monthsary namin ni Xander." 

I smiled at her. "Talaga.. wow.. congrats ah." I greeted, and Jared threw me a look. I just rolled my eyes and took a deep breath. "Ano, punta lang akong CR ah."

"Ako din." Xander suddenly said. Natahimik kaming tatlo, and stared at him. "Pupunta lang ako ng CR."

"Oh.. s-sure." sabi ni Marielle. 
"Samahan na kita Audrey?" Jared asked me, nung tumayo na ako. I shook my head and smiled. 

"Okay lang. Sandali lang naman ako eh." tapos nauna na sa akin si Xander papuntang CR, and I just followed. I glanced back at Jared and Marielle, and smiled at them assuringly.

Papasok na ako sa ladies' CR when Xander stared at me. I stared back, pero he finally looked away and went in doon sa mens' CR. Pumasok na rin ako and when I went in, I can't help but to catch my breath. That moment.. my heart skipped a beat, at pakiramdam ko may sinasabi sa akin yung mga mata ni Xander. Something.. important, pero hindi ko alam kung ano yun.

Lumabas na ako ng CR and was surprised to see Xander waiting for me. He is leaning on the wall, crossed his arms, and stares at me with those deep, blank brown eyes. I tried to smile at him, pero I dismissed the thought because I just can't.
"Ano.. halika na?" I managed to say.

"Audrey.." he held my hand and I was caught off guard. I wasn't expecting it, and the sudden move made rapid heartbeats. He cleared his throat. "I'll end it tomorrow."

"W-what?" 

He let go of my hand and nauna nang bumalik. I stood alone there, thinking about what he said. I'll end it tomorrow.. What is he trying to say? Anong tatapusin niya bukas?