Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Fifteen

" You don't have to sent me until up here Zayn . " this is like the dreams came true . Zayn Malik give me a piggy ride .

" I have to make sure that you are fine or Harry will fire my ass . " this is what he has been doing since he caught us at the toilet .

" Why would Harry do that ? " I was start to get annoyed at the amount of he keeps patching me up with Harry .

" I don't know . " he drop me off gently right infront of my apartment door .

" I don't know what's up with you but you can't just connect Harry with me . He has a wife . " I tell him loud and clear , crossing my arms over my chest .

" And you are a lesbian . " I really wants to yell at him and tell the truth but I hold it back for his sake . I'm doing this for you Zayn .

" Look , I'm not try to annoy you or anything but .. " he paused , taking a deep breath .

" I will understand completely if you have a tiny tiny crush on Harry . " what ?

" He has his own charm like no others and I don't blame you if you like him . " I like you Zayn . Can't you see that ?

" I don't like him . Not in the way that you think off . " he just caught us in the toilet and thinks I have a crush on Harry . We share the same bed , me wearing his clothes and he never point anything out .

" Don't be in denial . Why would you snuck into a men toilet for no good reasons ? " because we were talking about you .

" We need to talk . "

" About what exactly ? " and his smirk suggested something else .

" What is this ? Some sort of TMZ ? "

" Here I am thinking that you are my best friend . " when I want more than just a friend .

" Just get home and don't ever brings this up . " he lean in , messing with my hair .

And then he leave a kiss on my cheek , catching me off guard .

" Bye Cara and don't slap me for that tomorrow . " my hand flew to where he kissed and caress it as I watch he runs into the elevator .

Smiling like an idiot , I open the door and accidently push something behind the door hard . Letty who is stalking us is sent flying on the floor .

" What the hell did you do behind the door ? " she quickly stand up , pulling me into a hug .

" My friend is finally get what she wants . I'm so happy for you . " pulling away , I sent her a weird look .

" You and Zayn ? Yes ? No ? " I wish it was that easy .

" No . He stills think that I am a lesbian and he thought I liked Harry Styles . " she gasped , smacking my arm .

" Auch . What's wrong with you and the violent ? "

" You dissappear since yesterday and instead of bring me some good news , you dare to tell me that you didn't tell him that you are straight ? " how long it has been since I got here ? I have lost count .

" He liked me being a lesbian . "

" And why is that ? " I don't really want to tell the story twice but I don't have a choice . She will bug me till the end .

" He thought we can get close without breaking each other's heart . " I answer in a short sentences , carrying myself towards the living room .

" What about you ? " she plooped down besides me .

" What's up with me ? "

" You like him don't you ? How will you cope with this no string attached things ? " she made it sounds so sexual .

" We didn't have sex . " I clear that up .

" This is not about sex Cara . This is about your heart . How will you cope with him being sweet like a boyfriend with no commitment of real relationship ? " I groaned . Why would she makes this even more complicated ?

" I don't think that he will break my heart . " although I could sense I might wrong .

" What if he got a new girlfriend ? Will you be able to deal with that ? " I was taken back . I really didn't see it coming .

" I'm sure he won't leave just like that . " right ?

" Think about what this will cause you later on Cara . If he got a new girlfriend , he won't be doing all the cuddling with you anymore . His girlfriend will start to questioning what the purpose of having you around . You will have to admit that you know he won't get close to you like he is now . " can I cry now ?

" If he got a girlfriend then decided I'm not worth his time anymore then I will just leave . " this isn't simple as the words .

" You will do that for him ? " she stare at me like she is challenging me .

" Yes I would . It's not going to be the end of the world . " but it will be the end of me .

" Listen to me Cara . Confront him and tell him the truth . Yes it will hurt you but this is much better than the pain you are going to feel once you are used to have him around . " I shake my head .

" Too late . He is my world now . " Letty looks dissappointed at me .

" You better stay away Cara . Jason wants you to come back and you can use your job as a distraction . " Letty suggested and I could't agree with her . I was torn .

" You are my friend and I can't stand around , watch you destroy yourself . " she got the point .

" But .. "

" You know if you stay any longer , you won't be able to get away . Better now than later . " I am in dilemma .

Letty is right but I can't just leave because I was afraid he might broke me apart . What should I say to him ? The most important is , how will he respond to it ?