So kiss me where I lay down
" I change my mind , shut the song off . " maybe it's a bad idea to play One Direction's song in the time like this .
" If you tell me to play it again I will text Zayn and tell him that you .. " Letty is cut off by the song I decided to play again .
My hands pressed to your cheeks
A long way from the playground
" Cara . "
I have loved you since we were 18
" I missed his voice . " admitting out loud , I wipe away the tears .
Long before we both thought the same thing
To be loved and to be in love
All I could do is say that these arms were made for holding you
I wanna love like you made me feel when we were 18
" You know this is going to happen . "
" Don't you dare say I told you so . " scary is probably not what I look like now with red , puffy eyes and tear-stained cheeks .
" I was about to say that he is not doing any better than you . " I shake my head , refused to let myself fly high with false hope again .
" How did you know ? " yet again , I couldn't help but to ask .
" I stalked Zayn's twitter for you and let me remind you one thing , I never stalk any male celebrities others than Justin Bieber so yeah , this is kinda big thing for me to do . " she can be a diva sometimes .
" And I saw his tweets . "
" Of course you saw his tweets . That is what twitter is made off . " Letty rolled her eyes .
" Still being sarcasm in the time like this . " Letty snorted .
" Anyway , I saw his tweets and he seems heart-broken . " she paused , sit up straight as she take her phone in her hand and fake a cough .
" Why I have the feelings that things won't be the same again ? "
" Only half the blue sky . "
" Fire for a heart . Oh sorry , that was Naughty Boy . " I burst out laughing but with cracky voice , my laugh tone come out weird .
" You followed Naughty Boy on twitter ? " I choked out .
" No , hell no . Someone retweeted it on my timeline . " she defended herself .
" Oh really ? "
" He is in the middle of Zayn's tweets . " she speaks again when I give her a smirk .
" I won't judge if you have a tiny tiny crush on him , you know . It's a free country . "
" What the heck ? Can we go back to Zayn's tweets ? " I wanted to tease her more but I wanted to hear about Zayn's tweets .
" Fine . "
" Have you ever meet a girl that has yourself wrapped around her fingers . "
" And you can't be with her at the same time ? "
" Why life is so complicated ? "
" Can we go back to square one ? " she seems to scrolled through the timeline before look back at me .
" That's it . If that doesn't sound heart-broken to you , then I don't know what will . "
" What if he dedicated the tweets to Perrie ? " Letty looks at me like I'm the most idiot people on Earth .
" Zayn told the media that he and Perrie has ended their relationship awhile ago . Why would he tweet about it now ? "
" Maybe he has been holding it back since then ? " I don't even know what I'm saying .
" Nonsense . Every human is the same . They tend to talk about things they feel the most . "
" Since when you have become expert in human's feelings ? "
" Now you are judging my opinion when I'm here to help you ? I don't even know why I stay as your friend . " Letty babbling , waving her hands in the air to look more dramatic .
" Best friend . It's because you love me more than anything else . " I pull her close to give her a sloopy kiss on the cheek but I end up kissing her palm .
" Don't kiss me . "
" Fine . " quickly pull away , I give her a grin smile before my phone decided to play Moments by One Direction .
Shut the door
Turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this
Even though I try
The tears started to spill again and this time , I cry silently .
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands
Touch skin
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face
" Cara . Please don't cry . " I looked at concern face Letty and remember what Zayn told me .
It's hurt me to see you like this .
Harry's voice start to feel my ears .
If we could only have this life
For one more day
If we could only turn back time
" He hates to see me cry . "
" What ? " I couldn't speak anymore . It's like I have lost abilities to speak again .
" Cara , you should know better . Maybe this is the sign from God . If you stick any longer , you can't leave him . "
" W-what i-if . " I cursed mentally for my shuttering .
" I don't .. m-mind g-getting h-hurt all .. o-over a-again . " so that I could spend one last day with him .
Now , my mind started to do some throwback . The way his eyes light up everytime he laughed at my stupid jokes or sarcasms .
The way his lips twitched into a small smile everytime decided to be silly with his bandmates .
The ways his hands holding me close to his body , making me feel like I'm home .
" Want to know what the best that ever happened to me ? " Zayn yelled from the stage after I decided to give him some silent treatment .
" What now Zayn ? "
" It's you . You Cara Larvine is the best thing that ever happened to me . "
Oh Zayn , what have you done to me ?
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Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )
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