Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Thirty-Seven

Third Person POV

" Maybe you shouldn't call him . " Letty speaks her thought , finding it wasn't worth the try .

But as fierce and playful Cara could be , she still have that soft spot for Zayn . Doesn't matter if Zayn didn't try to contact her , she always will find excuses to forgive him .

" I need some answers . "

" We both know that if Zayn want to talk to you , he will . He has millions in his bank accound and I'm sure he can find his way to contact you but it has been . "

" Letty , please . At least give me a chance to talk to him . " Letty knows that Cara won't change her mind but she has to try .

Seeing her friend gets hurt is not on her list .

" Fine . " she wanted to leave but her friendship side stopped her .

Letty watched as Cara dail Zayn's number that is written clear in her mind . She can remember his number but never try to remember her number .

Cara put the phone at her ear , waiting patiently for Zayn to pick up the call .

Tut tut " Hello ? "

She wanted to cry right here and now after she hear his sleepy voice . Before she decided to call , she check his schedule through twitter . Directioner managed to find everything about the boys and she knows that they are hour away to perform and Zayn shouldn't sound like this .

" Hey , it's me . " it's feels like the first time she ever talk to him on the phone . If only she could turn back time .

Silent on Zayn's side .

Zayn knows exactly who is calling him . That's why his heart asked him to answer the call but his mouth couldn't say anything .

" Are you busy right now ? " Cara fake a bravery to start a conversation and Zayn notice how her voice is shaking .

Image of fragile she is on top of his body greeted his mind and it won't seems to leave anytime soon . Sometimes he wish that he could control himself that night but he scolded himself to ever think about regreting it .

" We are preparing for our next concert . " Zayn wanted to sound casual and it's not working .

Not for Cara . The hint of fake strong in his voice , not that she knows , making she asked herself . How could he become so casual about it when she couldn't forget every single moments they had ?

" Is this a bad time ? " maybe she disturb him .

" Zayn , put the phone down . Lou needs to work on your hair . " she knows exactly who does that voice belongs to .

And that thought hurts her even more . How could he hang around with Perrie after she left ?

" I need to go . " he press the red button , not waiting for her respond and he wanted to kill himself for that .

" Can't you see I'm in the middle of the conversation ? Who taught you to be rude this way ? " Zayn snapped , starting to loose his patient .

" Is that Cara girl again ? Because you only talks back whenever she is around your mind . " Perrie guess correctly .

" None of your damn business . "

" It is my business . "

" I never told you to come here . In fact I make it clear that I don't want you to be around me ever again but you thought it was just some stupid phase I'm going through . " Zayn is now like a Hulk , lashing out every thoughts he had on mind .

" Look what she has done to you . This is not Zayn that I know . " Perrie try to talk sweetly but Zayn is not buying it .

" Me being rude to you is my choice . It has nothing to do with Cara . Stop blaming every single things I did on her . " his protective side of Cara is still there inside him and with Perrie challenging him , it's not going to calm down soon .

" Everything you have become is because of her ! Before this , you never raise a voice at me and now , look what you have become . "

" Shut the f up before I call the security and throw you out from this place . " Zayn threaten and Perrie knows it was the best to talk to him in much calmer way .

" Zayn .. "

" Don't Zayn me . Got out ! " his voice roared the room and Perrie quickly leave . Inside her mind , she is cursing on what effect Cara has on Zayn .

As for Cara , she has stare at the phone for the last minutes in disbelieve . How could Zayn hang up on her ?

Tears started to pour out and Letty don't have to ask to know what's going on . She hates to say the I told you so words but she believe she is right all the time . If Zayn want her , Zayn would find a way to be with her , on tour or not .

" Cara ? "

" Give me some time alone please . " she pleaded with a broken voice that picture perfectly what her heart as become . Broken and hopeless .

" Okay but don't do anything stupid . I will be on the other room . " althought she is not quite fimilliar with Cara mom's house , she will find a way .

Standing up , she gave her best friend a last glance , feeling sorry for her . But Cara should has listen to her or none of this will happened .

Feeling defeated , she approached her best friend's door and twist the know open before the door is swing open from the other side , almost knocking her on the way .

" Cara ! " Brad stood at the door frame , panting .

" What happened ? " Cara asked with cracky voice .

" Mom . " they all know what's coming up next .

" Mom has gone . " with that , Brad fall on his knees , starting to cry like a small child that just loose most precious things in his life .

Cara took time to process everything and when it finally fit in , she started to cry along .

Her mother is gone . Zayn don't want her anymore . Only left is her lesbian best friend and her brother to help her walk down this Earth .

I hate to kill my main character but it is what it is .

On the other rants , Drag Me Down music video is out and I spend my last hours , trying to help the boys to break the Vevo Records !