Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Eighteen

From Letty

You got the apartment by yourself . I have to spend the night at someone else's house *wink

I groaned as I put back the phone into my pocket , not bother to reply .

" Something's wrong ? " I looked towards Zayn that has come out of nowhere .

" Everything is fine . " I lied , cursing Letty inside my mind .

The thing is , I was afraid to stay at our apartment alone . It's not that my apartment is haunted but I have this crazy phobia of being all alone . Letty knows that , that's why we share the same place .

" Oh Cara . " he moaned out my name and I just want to melt right here and now .

" You are such a bad liar . " he poke my cheek with his finger , chuckling .

" Am I ? " but I managed to lie to you about my sexuality so I am not a bad liar as you thought .

" Yes . I know something is wrong and you are free to tell me anything . " can I confess that I'm straight . Wait , no I can't do that .

"Everything is fine , really . " I hate telling people of my phobia . I have this crazy thoughts that will haunt my sleep if I was alone in my apartment and I don't want Zayn to think that I am weak .

" What's wrong Cara ? " he step closer , with our chest almost touching .

" Nothing Zayn . Don't worry about me . " I don't want you to judge me to be honest .

" You are being stubborn sometimes . " he sighed , caress my cheek .

" Fine . Letty is out with someone and she won't be home tonight . " hope that will makes him drop the topic .

Suddenly , he frowned .

" Out with who ? "

" I don't know . " why does this concern him ?

" Don't she supposed to tell you ? " now he stare at me like I just grow multiple heads .

" Trust me , I'm not interested with that . " snorting , I get slightly jealous with Letty .

He never concern if I would see someone else . Maybe that because I'm with him all the time .

" Shouldn't you like uh , want to know things like this ? Who she is seeing , where she is going . " I was about to say something when Niall interrupt me .

" Did you see my phone ? Oh my god , I lost my phone . " he keeps checking his pockets while I stare at him dumbly .

" Niall . "

" It was the lastest Iphone for god sake and I lost it . I just used it for a few days . "

" Niall . "

" Camila is going to kill me . " I pull out his phone from my pocket , waving it infront of his face .

" Where did you get this from ? " he snatch the phone and hide it from my view .

" You gave it to me earlier . " I reply in a duh tone .

" Right . I forget that . Thanks Cara . " he smile sheepishly before running back towards Liam .

" I found it ! " he did his oh so famous jump as I rolled my eyes .

" You didn't answer me Cara . " now what ?

" I gave back your phone earlier remember . Don't you dare tell me to find it . " being their PA also means being their big sister .

I have to hold their phones before shows , face their childish , whining attitude during dressing time , fetch them foods during peak time , stand in for their rehearsal and much more . If they have a heart to fire me , I will kick them where the sun doesn't shine .

" It's not about the phone . It's about Letty . " I made an O shape with my mouth .

" Right . I just don't find the reasons to stick my nose into her business . She is a grown up girl . " why would you care so much Zayn ? Don't tell me that you have a crush on her .

" But she is your girlfriend . Shouldn't you suspect if she is cheating on you ? " I mentally facepalm myself .

How could I forget that I introduce her as my girlfriend ? Well , accidently introduction .

" She wouldn't . " it's not like I care if she is seeing someone .

" How would you know ? I mean you are acting like nothing happen when she clearly stating that she is seeing someone . " quick , think about a way out .

" Uh , we have been together for quite some times so I doubt that . " more lies . Congrats Cara .

" Anything can happen Cara . You shouldn't put so much trust on someone . " we stare at each other without blinking .

" If she has someone else then it's fine with me . What's the point of trying to make someone stay if he or she didn't want to stay ? " now he looks at me like I just won an award .

" You get the points but don't you think it will hurt you when you find out if Letty didn't love you anymore as much as she did before ? " as a friend , yes I would kill her if she ever find a new best friend .

" I'll be fine . " just like I survive the sexual frustation with you .

" I hope so . Look Cara , " he cupped my cheeks with both of his hands .

" You make me strong and I would hate myself if I ever see you get hurt by something like this . Promise me that you will always find me if you have to go through a hard time . I don't want you to feel alone when you need me . " Zayn Malik confront me with a heart-breaking issue ? Wow , that's new .

" I will . " we both smiling at each other like all that matters is just us .

" If you aren't a lesbian , I would definately tell Zayn to date you . You guys are all over the place . " Louis snorted , cross his arms over his chest .

" Looking forward to see that day . " Harry give me knowing looks .

" Naah , she won't falls for me . " he glances at his bandmates before his eyes falls back at me .

" Right ? " oh Zayn , little did you know .

* que in Louis's voice
For god sake Zayn

Wattpad is messing with me . Suddenly when I was supposed to publish this chapter , my work list go blank .

I'm panicking for the whole 5 minutes , thinking what the hell I'm supposed to do . I even think about lashing out on Wattpad itself but then my works appear out of nowhere .

Anyway , just take time to admire this lovely gentlemen and pray that he will kiss Cara soon .