Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Fourty-One

" All in places ? The flower girls ? Check . " I grows more anxiety as it was the time Ashley walks down the isle .

" Bridemaids ? Check . "

" Cara , chill out for a moments okay . You are my head bridemaids and I can't have you like this . " I know Ashley is trying to makes me feels better and it's slowly working .

" Yeah , you will ruin the make-up if you don't calm down . "

" Fine , fine . " I give up . There is no point of protesting if you are against the team .

" Okay , gets in position girls . " Ashley's mom orders us and we quickly stand in our position .

" The music is play . Okay , everybody ready ? "Ashley's dad take his daughter's hand and intertwin it with him .

" Alright . Off you go . " the door is held open and we slowly walk behind Ashley and her father .

At the mean time , I take those chances to glance at the decoration . All is in place and I sighed relief . No one is getting their head hit with somethings , everything is fine .

" Calm down Cara . " Letty whisper from behind me and I fake a smile at the crowd .

" I am . " I fires back quietly .

When we reached the isle , my eyes landed on the mystery groom's best men and my jaw literally drop .

Zayn , Louis , Liam , Harry and Niall is standing side by side , along with my brother .

" Don't loose it . " Ashley glance at me , probably noticing how Zayn watch me intensly .

" Did you know about this ? " she smile innocently , motion towards my brother .

" I will kill you . " I mouthed at Brad , glaring dagger at him .

" You can thank me later . " Brad mouthed back causing me to groan .

Ashley is standing right infront of Brad and bad luck for me because since I'm the head of bridemaids , I have to stand in , facing the head of best men which is Zayn .

" We are here to celebrate the love of two people . Ashley and Bradley . If anyone has somethings to say about this wedding then speaks or forever hold it back . " with Zayn's gaze on me , I couldn't think straight . It's like he was trying to get through my mind .

" God created human with pairs and it is our jobs to find who is our other half . Sometimes we stumble across with the wrong person but never forget that He always wanted the best for us . " I take a deep breath .

Calm down Cara . You can do this .

" Now it is a time for the groom and the bride to stated their vows . " don't the speech is supposed to be long ? It was good it was cut short anyway so I can escape this place .

" Ladies first . " I try to distract myself by watching how Brad's face light up as he stared at Ashley lovingly .

" Bradley Larvine . You are the most annoying people I have ever meet but somehow you makes me attracted to you . You take care of me when I was not in my best condition , when I try to push you away . " the crowd started to laugh .

" Do you remember the day I went on the date with Joshua ? " slowly Brad nod , the smile never leave his face .

" You came out of nowhere , claiming that you love me and told me not to do this . You managed to scared him off and then you stay by my side althought I spend most of the time cursing at you for ruined it . " I have to laugh at this .

" Now I'm glad you did that . You saved me from getting my heart broken and now it's my turn to do the same . " they are so sweet together .

" If anyone ever come to me and offer me moneys to leave you , I would say no . It's wasn't a question and I don't even have to think it through because you have show me what it's feels like to have a boyfriend . A great boyfriend . " I saw Ashley grabbing Brad's hand and give it a little squeeze .

" So I vow to you that I will stay through thick and thin . I will stay in love with you like my parents did to each other . I will be loyal to you to the rest of my life because you complete me . " the crowd started to clap their hands at that beautiful vow .

" It's my turn . " Brad announced , taking a deep breath .

" This is not my vow and I don't have any disclaimer on this . I know it's wasn't fair since Ashley took time to wrote her own vow but she knows how much I love her and I'm sure she can related to this . " Zayn passed Brad a paper and my heart started to beat harder .

" I wasn't given any choice when God decided to makes me fall in love with you . I didn't choose to fall in love with you but my heart wants what it wants . " I was caught off guard when Zayn started to leave his line and approached me .

" From time to time , I lied to myself . There is no way I could fall for this girl . There is no way she could have me wrapped around her fingers in such a short time but she did . Sooner or later I couldn't lie anymore . " Zayn take my hands , holding it tight .

" You gave me something that I seek a long time ago . Happiness . " Zayn is mumbling those vow like he knows it very well .

" When you are not around , I feel empty inside . Something that I couldn't describe . It's like whenever you walk away , you took another half of me with you . " I couldn't help but stare back at his hazel eyes .

" You keeps a secret from me and I can't stay mad at you . Soon I learnt that you do this for my sake and if I want to blame it on someone , I need to blame it on myself . " tears are building up inside my eyes and I didn't try to fight it this time .

" So infront of the crowd , I vow that I would always love you no matter what . I vow that I will stick with you doesn't matter how many times you try to push me away . I vow that I will entertain your every whine and sacrasm . I vow that you will be the last person that I try to love because after all this , I couldn't imagine my life without you . " I watch Zayn with blurry eyes , trying to process everything he just said .

" I vow I will love you just like you did to me . "

Told you Zayn won't give up on her . *wink