Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Thirty-Nine

" How could you get hurt ? " Letty now is glaring at Zayn , probably blame him for the injury I have .

" I fell and hit my head . " doesn't mean to defend Zayn or anything . It was my fault anyway .

" I'm sorry I couldn't catch her on time . " Zayn apologize , looking back at Letty's harsh glare .

" Maybe you shouldn't appear in her life in the first place . "

" Letty . " I give her a warning tone .

" Why are you defending him ? I know you like him since the beggining but it was his fault you turn out like this . " Letty fires at me with such anger . She seems different .

" I didn't skip my tour just to make her fall and hit her head . " I gasped . He skip the tour ? But how ?

" That's means nothing to the amount of time you have break her heart . "

" Maybe we should leave . " Brad suggested , motion towards the door .

" Leave her with this man ? I will .. "

" Let's just go . " Brad technically pulls Letty with him , exiting the room .

When the door is closed , I stare at the ground . Feeling his burning gaze on me .

" Say thanks to your brother for letting me borrow his clothes . " that was least important right now .

" Did you skip the tour ? " I wanted to know .

He sighed , nodding afterwards .

" I find out about your mother and I think I should come . Why you never told me about her having a cancer ? " there an uneasy tone in his voice .

" I couldn't . "

" That's why you leave me in France ? " why he is attacking me with these rapid questions ?

" Yes . That's the reasons I leave . " I answer him quietly .

" You should have told me sooner . I wouldn't accused you for using me . "

" If you never did that , you will never know that I am straight . " I blurt out , eyes widen .

Why your mouth is born with no filter Cara ?

" I wish you would told me sooner . "

" That wouldn't change anything . It won't cure her if you know . " at some point , I don't think he cares .

" She is like a mother to me so I think I deserve to know . " why he has to make this even more complicated ?

" I was stress out okay . She calling me when I was miles away to finally let me know about her cancer that she has been hiding all this long . Do you think I can take this easily and tell everyone about the news ? I barely could contain my tears for god sake . " somehow my explanation caught him off guard .

" You just find out about it ? I thought you already know ? "

" I won't leave her side if I know from the start . Stop making me feels like I'm the worst daughter ever . " this conversation is giving me a headache .

" I don't think you are the worst daughter . Not from what she told me . "

" Stop acting like you know her . " because you don't .

" How do you think she gots my number ? " Zayn asked gently .

I stay silent , don't know what to say although my mind keep whispering Paul's name as the answer .

" Paul brings me to meet her one day , few years ago . At that time , there are serious conversation about kicking me out from the band and I take that to the heart . " I looks up at him as his eyes keep wondering around the room .

" When Paul left upstairs to get something that belongs to your father , she speaks up . How she see the sadness behind my smile is beyond me but she understand me like no others could . " he smile at the air for the reasons only he knows .

" She told me to stay strong . Life is a roller coster so I need to enjoy the ride , not to get stressed about it . When I am down , I always end up texting or calling your mom . " how could I didn't know this .

" That's why I told you that I deserve to know about her . Because she changed my life . " she changed my life too .

" I didn't know about how close you two . If not , I would tell you about her . " I started to feel sorry for Zayn .

We both stay silent as I couldn't find any words to keep this conversation going . My headache started to wear off but I decided that the bandage should stays there .

" You know , she texted me to take care of you and .. " I look up at him , don't know where this is leading .

" I can't do it . " I know somewhat he will choose this .

" I know that the moments you hang up on me . " no need for drama . Just walk away Zayn .

" What ? " suddenly he chuckles .

" You think I hang up because I want to leave your side ? " slowly I nod .

" I hang up because Perrie is there . I don't want to drag you into the mess she created . "

" That doesn't change the fact that you will still walk away . " I reply in monotone , have enough of this chasing .

" Can you at least wait until I finish ? " I bite my lips from giving any reply .

" I said I can't do it from this distance between us . I want you to come with me , doing the tour . " my jaw drop .

" W-what ? "

" That's the other reasons why I'm here . I want to take care of you like your mother told me too . " he explained himself .

" But I don't want to leave . " I decided I should cut all this drama . What's the point anyway ? I would end up getting hurts at the end .

" Then I'm not leaving without you . "

" Your tour ? You can't just skip the rest of it . " this is crazy .

" Then come with me . " I sighed . This is not easy .

" Zayn , there is no way I could come with you . "

" Please . You need to come with me . " this is the part where we called the ending of our story .

" We came from the different world Zayn and I decided that was the best for us to stick to it . You have your job and I have mine . Maybe you should leave and never come back . "

" But Cara . "

" I'm tired with the chase Zayn . The chase where I always end up getting hurt . I love you but that wasn't enough . For both of our sakes , you should leave alone . " if he was meant for me that he would come back but for now ..

I should let him go .