Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Thirty-Five

Third Person's POV

" What the hell is her password . " Zayn grunted as the phone locked for another 30 seconds because he keeps typing in the wrong password .

I always love you Zayn . From the start

You are my favourite member of One Direction .

I memorise every solo you had .

I was there when they wanted to kick you out from the band .

I was there when you get your first tattoos .

I was there when you first perform at O2 Arena .

I am straight and I have loving you since the beggining of One Direction .

I have a dream and I'm saving myself for you .

A girl can dreams right ?

All sense he has seems to fly away the moments he let her go . Half of his heart wanted to chase her and kiss her like there was no tomorrow but another couldn't stand her anymore . It was a broken half .

Too deep into his thought , he type in his name as a password and the phone unlocked itself . He stare at like it was a grenade , ready to explode .

What surprised him more is a picture of Cara and himself as a wallpaper but he still have the blonde highlight at his hair and both of them looks a lot younger . Immediately he knows that it was during their Take Me Home time .

Suddenly he is mad with himself . How could he forget about meeting her before ? But yet again , he meets thousands of fans before so it was impossible for him to remember her .

His fingers quickly press the twitter icon before timeline is shown at the screen . All of them are basically based on One Direction's tweets , nothing that stands up .

Suddenly he has this urge to see what's her twitter profile and he did feed the curiosity . But what he find out next just makes him feel like he is the worst man ever walked on Earth .

He remembered this twitter account quite closely because this is a fan made twitter account of him . The first one that ever been made and this same twitter account that created Zsquad .

So she is the one that has been supporting him all the way ? She stands out when people is trending #KickZaynOutOf1D . She is fierce when defending him when he was called out for a cheating rumors .

" How could I be so blind ? " he asked himself .

He saw the last tweet and again he scolded himself . How could he missed the tweet ?

That awkward moment when Zayn thought that you were lesbian when you are in love with him .

Stupid Zayn Malik . Why so stupid ?

He exit the twitter and decided to search through her contact list . Creepy but he needs more information . He clicked on the favourite contacts and one contact caught his attention .

Future Husband .

Then he realized that the contact contain his number . She saved his number using this nickname .

He exit the contact and press the gallery button . The thumbnails are out , showing him a different folders .

Ugly Cara

Familia

Zayn Malik

He clicked on the Zayn Malik and picture of him popping out the screen . From The X-Factor until today , she keeps every single photos of him including some screenshot of news about me .

He wanted more so he exit the gallery and push the video buttons . Going through the video list , he realized most of the video is about him . Zayn Malik's funny moments , Zayn Malik's high notes , Zayn Malik one shot story Zayn Malik's facts , everything is in there .

He is too caught up to realized that the boys has joined him in the dressing room .

" She has boarding the flight . I even told Lou to go with her . " Harry informed the broken-heart and confused man that has spend his time looking through the phone .

Cara has in fact , leave him again and now he knows that it was his fault . He was too oblivious to see that Cara is falling head over heels for him .

" You alright mate ? " Harry asked carefully , knowing well Zayn's attitude .

" We can always delayed the tour . " Liam suggested .

" No . " he reply with a strong tone but only God knows that he doesn't feel strong like his tone .

" You know , it's not your fault . " Harry try to reassure him but that kind of comfort is not what he looking for .

" Did any of you know that she is straight ? " Zayn asked the boys .

Louis shaked his head .

Liam mumbled a slow no .

Niall looks confused .

Harry stay silent .

Zayn notice Harry's move and his heart told him that Harry knows everything . No wonder she is so close to Harry .

" Did you know about this Harry ? " slowly Harry nod .

" Why ? " he feels betrayed .

" Why you never tell me before ? "

" It was her decision and I agreed with her . " Harry speaks slowly .

" Do you realized that this is involving me too ? Do you realized how much this knowledge could turns the table around ? " Zayn haunted Harry harshly , trying to make him feels guilty and it's working .

" No need with the harsh tone Zayn . We need to talk about this in much mature way ? " Louis try defended Harry but Zayn won't tolerate that .

" Mature way ? So he keeping the secret is mature way for you ? " Zayn bites back .

" I start to love her from the beggining but I hold myself back because I think she is a lesbian when Harry here knows the truth . So put yourself in my shoes and tell me if you can handle this in much calmer way ? " Zayn's voice roared the room and none of the boys dare to look at him in the eyes .

Then the image of her beneath him floaded his mind . The way she grabbed his bisceps and whimper in pain turns him on but makes him want to cry at the same time .

" I think you boys better leave . " he has lost his most precious person in his life and he don't want to risk losing his brothers too .

The boys started to leave the room , leaving Zayn with his own thoughts . Thoughts on how he lost the one that defended him the most and have love him from the start .

Listening to Turn Your Face when I wrote this and it sure as hell makes me want to cry . Damn .