Sexuality Secret ( Book 4 )

Twenty-Two

Only half the blue sky
Kinda there but not quite
Walk around with just one shoe
I'm half the heart without you

I sing quietly as I enter the Emirates stadium . The boys are having their concert here as part of their tour tomorrow night and it was half way done .

Out of nowhere , someone pull me from my track towards the seats available at the stadium . Judging by the tattooed hand , it's Harry .

" Sit now and pretend you are not here . "

" Uh Harry , we are at the front row . They could see us perfecly . " if it was a zombie attack , I would not be so surprise if Harry got eaten first .

" Just lay on the floor . "

" What ? Are we in some mission impossible ? I ain't no Tom Cruise . " he pull me down until I was crouches on the ground .

" Keep your voice down . Zayn will hear you . " are we playing hide and seek because I don't remember participating .

" Why I need to hide ? " he gave me ' Are You Kidding ? ' looks .

" It was all over the news . "

" Speaks English please . " Harry sighed , typing somethings in his phone .

" They saw you and Zayn last night . The media started a rumor about you dating Zayn silently and Perrie is not happy about it . " he pass me his phone with the headline news .

Zayn Malik spotted wearing unique outfits with a mysterious girl .

Is Zayn Malik cheating on Perrie Edwards ?

" What the heck ? I thought Zayn is breaking up with Perrie . " wait , I never saw a headlines about Zayn's breaks up .

" Don't tell me the media didn't know that the engagement is over . "

" Perrie wanted to lay low until they both recover from the break-up . " none of this make sense .

" Why can't they just straight tell the media that it's over ? What's the point of hiding ? "

" Stay the heck down . " Harry put his hand on my back , urge me to stay down on the floor .

" Stop pushing me around . " I groaned , stay down like a turtle .

" Celebrities is not like the normal people . When they break up , people tends to ask about it over and over again plus Perrie is on her album promotion right now . Let's just say that she wanted to avoid that kind of conversation . "

" What about Zayn ? " how would he feels about pretending to be in broken relationship ?

" Zayn always wanted the best for her . " of course he would .

" Harry , who are you talking too ? " Louis's voice echo the stadium and I guess he is using the mic .

" Just talking to myself . " he waved awkwardly .

" Like a weirdo . " yes you are .

" Get back here . " he looks at me through his side eyes .

" I'm not done talking to myself . " he flicked his long curly hair , looking like a diva .

" You have plenty of time to do that . " I could imagine Louis rolling his eyes .

" Why I need to hide anyway ? " again , Harry stops me from revealing myself .

" Zayn is really weird today . "

" Harry ! "

" Shut up Louis . I'm in the middle of the damn conversation . " with yourself . How attractive .

" He become talkative and Liam accidently asked about you . Zayn just dissappear and reappear again with a bloody knuckles . " I held myself from gasping .

" Did he hates me for the headlines ? " Harry just stare at the air , didn't reply my question .

" So he did hates me . " first I got friendzone and now he hates me because of trying to respect his ex's decision ?

" Maybe he is just stress . Perrie didn't stop texting him since this morning . "

" I know she is here . " a voice that I didn't want to hear right now came out of nowhere .

" Zayn , don't hurt her . " the thought of Zayn lashing out on me didn't scare me off . Instead , I'm looking forward to it .

Instantly I stand up , revealing myself to the boys .

" If you want some distance now then fine . I will go . " never in my life I would tell him the words that hurts me like a knife .

To be honest , I don't want to go .

To be honest , I don't give a shit about what the media might accused me with .

" Can you leave us alone Harry ? " Harry give me a worry look before he bounce off the seats .

" What is it Zayn ? " I ask bravely .

" This is not going to work . " straight to the point and I could feel my heart is being ripped off .

" I know you are going to say that . " he couldn't meet my eyes .

" You need to understand that this is not easy for me too . " Zayn sighed as I am at the edge of tearing up .

" Letty try to makes me realized that one day , you will be doing this . I know it will happen although I never confess it but I .. " never thought it would be this soon .

" It's not like I'm trying to make you stay away , no . We can still be friends but we can't do what we did now . " it's just some friendship for god sake Cara . Get a grip .

" Sure . " my voice is betraying me .

His head snapped towards me immediately .

" Cara , I didn't mean to make .. " he raised his hand up and only then I realized that Harry is telling the truth . His hand is bandaged .

" Didn't mean to make you cry . Please , it's hurt me to see you like this . " I know if I stay any longer , I couldn't hold back the tears so I pull away .

" It's okay Zayn . If this makes you happy then I will do it . "

" Please don't do this to me . " he pleaded .

" I quit . Tell the boys that I say goodbye . "

" Cara . " as much as I want to look back , I didn't .

My legs is carrying me away , away from Zayn . The man that I never realized I loved so much until this moments .

I'm dying .