Prince on the wrong path? (solby)

CHEPTER 63

and gave him the money "I take all 10 ma'am and also how fast could you get 100 red roses" I ask she looked at me with wide eyes "did you say 100" making me nod "if you can give me 3 days I get you 100 but that is 7 gold coints" no problem ma'am here are already 4 I pay the rest when you bring them Okay " she nodded with a smile I take the sunflowers walking up to sam who payed already" ready to go " I ask he smiled so we walked out the market and to the wagen on our way to the cemetery hoping it's ready and Sam will like it it was just a 2 min drive so we where there quick getting off and walking inside I looked around for the first time seeing many very old ones but also new ones 1 caught my eye bc it had new flowers on it I stopped for a sec reading the name Markus woah he was only 16 that's horrible sam standing beside me looking sad when I looked at him "rest in peace Markus" I said before walking again to the back seeing the new gravestone from here it was so bright and big and it made me happy "colby what is this" he said shocked touching it "your parents new stone much more Worthy for the prince's parents" I said seeing him smile as a tear run down his face "hey mommy and daddy I hope you like you new stone I love him colby got it for you I dident know about it" he said kneeing down "hello Mr and Mrs golbach sam and I brought you flowers again I heard you love sunflowers" I said placing it down "colby is there any toilet here do you know that" go to the keeper he knows where you are he helps you I stay here waiting he nodded walking of fast giving me the perfect chance I wanted "Mr and Mrs golbach I wanted to talk to you, the fact that I know you are here and see us brings me to the reason I wanted to come here, I'm sure you saw what happens and I wanted to apologize to you both for my unforgivable act I feel so horrible about it I'm sure you know it really is so hard on me that I touched him, you to know I never did anything like this I love him more then myself I give everything to him and always traid my hardest I hope you 2 can forgive me some day that I touched your son I don't know who this was in that moment but not me"I said tears run down my face as I felt a warm wind on my face making me softly smile and a slight touch on my hand being sure this is his mother it has to"is that you Mrs golbach I struggle so much with self hate without sam on my side now I won't be here anymore I promised him to be there and to take care of him bc he already lost you and I will he won't be alone ever"I just feel so unbelievably guilty I don't know what to do I don't know how to not feel guilty anymore about this I know he is the one he has the right to be sad mad angry and I'm not playing the victim here I don't want pitty from anyone I just feel like the absolute monster I can't understand why I would ever do this"that's when I felt like I was being hugged but also not really I closed my eyes for a sec taking that in hearing a sniff behind me jumping a little when I turned seeing sam sitting behind me on the ground tears rolling down his face"since when are you here"I ask the whole time I dident found the keeper"he said looking at me in the eyes but I couldn't I just nodded looking away he came closer taking my hand"you felt them right"yeah believe me or not but you mom hugged me "I said my lip quivering" I believe you colby but that also mean they forgive you bc we all know that's not you everyone forgiven you Colby I know it's the hardest on you for doing it and the hardest for me who got it but I know that wasn't you amd the person now is also not you, you have to forgive yourself someday colby or our relationship will break"but my head is now constantly on a what if that happens again mode"colby I bet my life it won't you regret that so deeply to your core that you would never we all know you, and love you and you are the sweetest kindest fairest, person ever I mean look at the things you do buy flowers for my parents do a fest for the City buy your maids and guards stuff you are naturally so sweet if I would think for 1 moment that you are bad I would have never married you"i know all this and I understand all of this but I don't know how to describe it it's this overpowering feeling of guilt , shame, sadness like you heart I don't wanne be the victim or petty okay I know I should get nothing at all I deserve it I don't how to come out off it it's like a mountain lays on me "colby I know exactly how you feel not in that scenario but the feeling when I parents died I felt all the guilt and sadness and anger I wanted to go with them I dident wanted to be here" what did you do "I ask I screamed I cried and I met you he looked at me" that's why I said you saved me not bc of the dungeon you saved me colby I mean it you brought me light in the dark laughter in the quiet love in an empty heart you took my heart that I never thought will be beating again and healed it of course I'm still sad sometimes but it's not so dominating anymore, so if you let me, our love can save you and us if you isolate you and your fellings then I can't get to your heart colby we can't let die what we had please I love you " he whispered when a wind blew around us and leaves fell off the tree making me look at sam with Watery eyes and in question he nodded with a smile" but I have one question " he said I turned my head to give him my attention" even though you can't say it now your love for me hasn't chanced right " no sam of course not what would I have as a reason if anyone has the right then you" my love for you hasn't chanced at all not 1% "he said instantly" you want to go to eat now or want to Stay here longer " I ask" we can leave now I'm back soon " making me nod standing up helping sam up" good bye Mr and Mrs golbach "i said bending down a bit" bye mommy bye dad "he said walking off with me out the cemetery" so what would you like to do go in a restaurant or something like a picnic " he hurned his head in lightning speed" picnic "he said but more in question" I mean that's also outside the castle and you always wanted to right " making him nod fast" please picnic at the place where we saw the moon please it's so beautiful there "he said happy" okay then we do that we go home and tell Frieda to pack everything and I go chance real quick I need something more comfortable "okay then I go to Frieda tell her what we need anything you want" yeah please something to drink " I said looking at him he looked at me worried" not alcohol sam just water juice anything I'm thirsty "he nodded" and I'm graving veggies for some reason he giggled " making me shake my head" at least it's healthy oh and I take the sweets to the room to yeah " yeah but I bought something with chocolate to so don't put it where it's to warm" he answered soon we where back and sam jumped down seeming excited making me happy "is it okay if I go really quick" of course Sammy go I come down when chanced "he nodded walking off I walked through the door greeting Thomas and Michael walking up the stairs and in our room chancing real quick putting the sweets away washing my hands, walking back down and to the kitchen stopping in front" so he apologized to your parents "yeah it was so sweet and heartbreaking at the same time but get that he bought a new stone it's hugeeeee and bright it's so beautiful I bet my mom loves it" really when did he do that "I don't know he only said it has to be for the prince's fam I swear he always does the sweetest things he even apologized on the market even though I was already there to make the situation clear bc I dident want that everyone hates him" he said making my heart happy amd sad that he things about my reputation instead of his "and how is he" I not sure guys if you would talk to him or see how he acts you would probably see not much but emotionally hes not good he still can't look at me he doesn't hold my hand or says any pet name or I love you really