Halcyon

did you ever wonder...?

did you ever wonder

why you laughed louder

when no one was listening?

or did you ever think

the party was lonely with

my absence?

did you know

i noticed the way you leaned in

only when the room felt temporary?

were you aware

that you said my name differently

when you were about to leave?

do you remember

telling me i was special

like it was a shared secret,

not a warning?

do you remember calling me

the best girl you have ever met,

under the night sky?

or the time when you confessed

to me in a digital message,

that you would rather have just

made me the 'one'?

when you found me,

was it relief

or rehearsal?

did you mean it

when you asked me to stay,

or was that just something

you liked hearing echoed back?

were you lonely,

or just allergic to being alone?

do you still tell the story

like it happened to you,

or have you finally admitted

you were present

the whole time?

and tell me—

when you think of us now,

do you miss me,

or do you miss

how easily

you were forgiven?

well, i just wonder.