Catching Feelings

21

The next afternoon I'm in my hotel room  stepping out of the shower. I woke up early and came back to my hotel so  that we wouldn't raise any suspicions. I hear a tap on my door while  drying off so I throw my towel around me and peek out the peephole to  find Justin standing on the other side of the door. I told him I would  be back later, but I guess he couldn't wait. I swing the door open and  hurry him inside.
"What's up I told you I would be back are you trying to make things worse for yourself?"
He kisses me on the forehead "Relax B..damn..you worry too much." He sits down on the edge of the bed.
"Yea and you don't worry nearly enough so I guess I have to worry for the both of us then."
He  rolls his eyes and shakes his head "Why don't you come over here and I  can help you with that towel?" He's trying desperately to change the  subject.
Now it's my turn to roll my eyes "Not a chance." I laugh before shutting the bathroom door.
Within a few minutes he's opening the bathroom door without knocking "Oh so we are at this point in our relationship huh?"
He laughs a little, hops up on the counter and watches me while I dry my hair. "So Scooter just called my phone and yours..."
I shut off the hairdryer to that I can hear him more clearly "And?"
"We have to go to New York."
"New York? For what?" There's nothing scheduled."
He  runs his hand over his face "Well there is now..He scheduled me on the  Today show and The View to address this whole.." He pauses for a moment  "situation."
"Oh..." I lean back against the wall. I was hoping he  wouldn't have to do this but I see that Scooter is trying to do damage  control.
"So when do we leave then?"
He hops off the counter,  makes his way over to me and puts his hand on my hip "A couple of  hours..relax B..you're more tense than I am right now and it's not  helping anything."
"I know, I'm sorry...it's just.." I trail off..not  really knowing what to say to him. There are a thousand things I want  to say but I can't. My mind hasn't stopped racing since this all  started. I don't know how he remains so calm. He pulls me into a hug and  for a few moments I feel myself relax. When he pulls away he kisses me  on the cheek "I have to go back to my house and do some things before we  go..do you want to come with me or..." He trails off.

"No I think it's best if I stay here."
He drops his head "Okay well I guess I'll see you later."
I  nod and give him a quick kiss. He looks back before he shuts the door.  He looks sad and I feel so terrible that he has to go through this right  now yet I'm still so afraid that this is all going blow up. What if it  really did happen and he's the father of this child? I shake my head  trying to rid myself of the thought. It physically makes me sick every  time I think about it.
Later that evening after we have successfully arrived in New York and checked into our respective hotel rooms  we all meet up in Scooters room to discuss tomorrow's schedule. I've  kept my distance from Justin. I do not need Scooter worrying about  something else, now just isn't the time.
He and Allison both brief us on what is going down tomorrow and how he should handle the questions  that will be thrown at him. I can see that it's taking its toll on  Justin, he looks overwhelmed and I know that it will only be worse  tomorrow.
Scooter slouches back in his chair "So do you got all that  Justin? This is serious and you need to get a good night's sleep, you  have to be on top of your game tomorrow."
"Dammit I know that Scooter!" He snaps.
Allison takes a softer approach "We know that you know Justin, we are just trying to prepare you, that's all..."
He relaxes a little "I know I'm sorry...this is just such bullshit that I even have to do this."
We all nod our heads in agreement..no one really knows what else to say.
Normally  I would be right along with them telling him what needs to be done and  so on but I've remained quiet because frankly I just don't know what to  do or say or how to even act.
Scooter stands and puts his hand on  Justin's shoulder "Okay then so it's settled..everyone needs to just go  to their rooms relax and get some rest."
Justin stands but Scooter stops him from walking out "It'll be okay kid..no matter what happens."
Allison and I make our way out of the room before they finish talking. "I guess I'll see you in the morning Bobbi."
"Yea." is all I offer.
She  gives me a quick hug. This sucks, everyone is so glum. I'm leaning back  against the wall when Justin walks out a few minutes later.
"Hey..I figured you went to your room already."