Fixing What Fell Apart

F.U

" Lets do this dirty Laundry this dirty laundry
Lets do this dirty laundry this dirt laundry
When you soaked in tears for years it never airs out
When you make pain look this god it never wears out
Its dirty laundry
So here I am in this spin cycle we're coming and we're going nobody would notice
and I was trapped in his house
lying to my mama
Thought it could get no worse as we maximize the drama." Kelly Rowland- Dirty Laundry
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After Javon visited Jaylen we all left the hospital. I didn't say anything to him about Shauni because I had something for them. I told Javon that there was a reason Jaylen didn't like her but his naive ass doesn't listen and I know that wasn't her first time doing that shit.
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4 weeks later

"Come on big head go get your stuff." Kenya said to Jaylen as he clung onto her leg. He got off and ran upstairs.

Today I was gonna chill here and Kenya was gonna take Jaylen to hang with Makayla. Usually he would be with Javon but since his bighead ass girlfriend wanna hit my baby then he won't see him. I blocked his number and haven't let him see Jaylen in four weeks. I know this is childish to keep him from his son but if it wasn't for him Jaylen wouldn't have been hit or in the hospital in the first place.

"We're leaving Jo love you bitch."

"Love you too girl." i said laughing

I saw Jaylen about to run out the door.

"Jaylen!" I yelled before he went outside. he turned to me.

"Give me kissy" I play pouted.

"I love you mommy." he said coming to me and pecking my lips.

"Love you too booka be good for auntie Kenny." I said walking him to the door.

I waved as I watched them drive away.

I closed and locked the door and walked upstairs. I got to the master bedroom and seen Shaud getting dressed.

"Where you going?" I said standing in the doorway.

"Out" I already knew what that meant I just rolled my eyes and got on the bed getting on instagram.

I smiled at a picture Kenya had tagged me in of Jaylen. in the car. I didnt even notice Shaud looking at me.

"What you smiling at?" I ignored him focusing back on the picture.

He snatched the phone and looked at the picture while I rolled my eyes. He tossed the phone back on the bed. I scoffed.

"If I was messing around I wouldnt do it in your face." I looked back to my phone . I felt a hard slap across my face.

"You gonna stop playing with me girl ." I got up and brung my hand back connecting it to his face. I must've did something because he stumbled back and clutched his face.

"So you gonna hit me now?" he yelled grabbing me by my neck and holding me up against the wall. I kicked my feet because they were no longer on the ground.

"Let me go" I cried as his nails began to go through my skin.i could feel blood talk down my neck.

Im assuming he saw the blood because as if something went off in his head his grip loosened as he gently pulled me to the floor with him.

"Im so sorry Jo."

"Get off me ." I cried running to grab my keys off the dresser and running downstairs and getting in my car and locking the door.

I put my head on the steering wheel and cried while getting my mind together.

I flinched when Shaud began knocking on the window.

"Open the door baby Im sorry." I quickly wiped my face before pushing the button and pulling off.
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A few minutes later I was pulling up to my mom's house.

I noticed another car in the driveway but i wasnt paying attention I got out running up to her doorstep and bamming on the door .

"Mommy" I cried when she opened the door. She pulled me in observing my condition.

"What happened to you Jo." she said examining my face.

"He hit me." I whispered looking down.

"Who?" a male voice said . I looked up to see Javon.

"Fuck."I whispered rolling my eyes.

"Who hit you Nene?" I sighed

"Nobody okay?" I snapped. I saw his jaw clench.

"We'll be back ma." He said to my mother before grabbing my hand and pulling me out the door and to his car. He opened the door and gently pushed me in.

He got in and pulled off. This reminded me of that situation that happened 5 years ago after that party and he fought Marcus' cousin.

"Why were you with my mom?"

"I havent seen my son in a month and you wasnt answering me I was worried." He said simply. I just looked away

"Where's Jay?"

"With Kenya and Makayla."

I didnt realize we were at my house until Javon took my keys out my lap and got out. I stayed in the car.

He a few moments later he came out.

"What happened."

"Him and his shit is gone." I was shocked but kinda happy.

"He didn't hit me"

"Then who did huh?"

I just shook my head and looked out the window and sighed.

"Take me to my moms please I don't wanna be alone."

"Alright I gotta get to Shauni anyways."I mentally rolled my eyes. She was still gonna get hers and I would handle it myself without the help of Javon.

We pulled up to my moms house and he grabbed my arm before I got out.

"Jo we not together but I love you... As my first love, my bestfriend and the mother of my child. Take care of yourself man the shit you do and the people you bring into your life affects my son." I nodded and sighed.

"I love you too and thanks."

"Always you know I got you. I'll pick Jaylen up from Ken alright?" I nodded and closed the door and walked into the house.

She cleaned up my bruises and I went into Ammonie's old room and went to sleep.