Fixing What Fell Apart

Cars and Redlights

"Now I know 
It ain't never worth your heart
And it ain't never worth your tears
And it ain't never worth those scars that might night heal
I need I need I need you(3x)
I need you more than my next breath." TGT~ I need
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Journey
I got up at about 7 and took a shower and did my hygiene. I dragged my feet to the boy's rooms and when I got to Jaylen's I seen him and Tony asleep on the floor on top of a pile of sheets.

"Jaylen, Tony" I said shaking them both.

After doing this a few times the got up.

"Goodmorning auntie"

"Goodmorning mommy" Jaylen yawned.

"Goodmorning babies" I echeesed.

"Get up I have some things to do so I'm gonna take you to Javon." They both got up and stretched then Jaylen dragged his feet to his bathroom and Tony went to his.

Whenever Jaylen went with Javon Tony went to. I didn't think it was fair that Tony was confined to the house while Jaylen went out so I let him go to. He has grown close to Javon and he didn't seem to mind at all. Plus Tony got to spend time with his little brother.

I was still a little bothered by Shaud's death and the only thing that kept me from breaking down was the fact that I was his punching bag at a point. If sounds crazy but I really did love Shaud he was my longest relationship and it hurt the way he went out.

I walked back into my room to see Kendrick on the edge of the bed typing away on his phone.

I crawled over to him and Layed my head in his shoulder running my hands down his tatted arms.

"Who you texting ?"

"Coach" he said placing his phone on the dresser and turning towards me.

He hovered over me and placed his lips on my neck sucking aggressively leaving his mark.

"B-baby the kids are up." He chuckled causing vibrations on my neck causing chills to run through my body. He got up and softly kissed my lips.

"You good?" He asked as concern took over his face. I'm guessing he was referring to Shaud's death.

"Yea I'm fine just a little sad that's all." He pecked my lips again and moved a strand of hair from my face.

"You'll be cool your strong don't let this stress you, you been through a lot." He climbed off of me and went into the bathroom.

I threw in a pair of black tights a black and white PINK hoodie and white shell toe addidas. I put my hair in a neat ponytail and put on my linked necklace that said Jaylen on the too and Jayden on the bottom. I put in my gold Micheal khors watch and gold and silver studs. I looked at my appearance satisfied and grabbed my nvm bag and exited the room.

"Jaylen and Tony lets go." I yelled walking down the stairs. A few seconds later I heard tiny footsteps and then my handsome babies came running down the stairs. Tony had in a plain white shirt black pants and barons 13 with and angel necklace around his neck. I could tell he had brushed his curly hair and his earnings that Javon had brought him was shining and he looked adorable. Jaylen had on a white shirt black pants and his Baron's as well.

"You two look so cute." I pouted.

"Lemme take a picture." I said pulling my phone from out my pocket as Jaylen sucked his teeth.