Fixing What Fell Apart

Let Go

"You been rollin' around, shit I'm rollin up
Light and roll it up
Break it down like a pound, shit was never us
Shit was never us
That's the real on the real, are you serious?
How you feel, how you feel?
Used to trip off that shit I was kickin' to ya
Had some fun on the run though, I give it to ya." Rihanna~Needed Me
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J O U R N E Y

"Bitch stop playing and do the shit." I yelled laughing at Kenya as she struggled to place me on her neck.

We were doing a photo shoot for Tommy Hilfiger and we were having so much fun.

After the trip I was confused. Not because I liked Javon. But because he definitely put me in a really tight space. No doubt I still loved Javon and I always would and if I could be with him I would but I couldn't hurt Amod again. I then began thinking about the day at Pizza Hut and the other nights on the trip that Javon and I shared together. I still hadn't told Amod and I didn't know how to.
I then began to think about Marcus and how I had to be around his fiancé almost everyday knowing he had feelings for me. As for Marcus I loved him too but I wouldn't be with him ever again. Not only because of Ronnie but because we never sparked like that.

"Good Ladies."the photographer said after we took the picture. He let us look at it and it was great. This one was my favorite.

"Let me go!" I heard someone scream and I turned around suprised to see Marcus struggling to hold Ronnie.

I looked at Kenya and she shrugged as Ronnie got out of Marcus's gripped and stormed to me.

"I thought you were my friend Jo." She said as tears filled her eyes and I frowned confused as hell.

"I am your friend Ronnie what happened."

"The wedding is off my fucking relationship is off and it's your fault." I automatically knew what she was talking about but she couldn't blame this on me. I didn't want her to find about Marcus' feelings for me.

"Get your shit and get the fuck out your fired!"

"Fired?! What did I do?"

"You think I wouldn't find out about you and Marcus?! Your crazy don't bring your ass back!" She yelled before look at Marcus and storming out. He came up to me as I looked around in shock.

"Jo I'm so sorry."

"Fuck you this is your fault." I spat before going to my dressing room to change.

How did this all go downhill so fast.
***

Getting home I saw Amod's car in the driveway but I was in no mood for company. Jaylen was with Nicki in the house and I just wanted to cuddle with my baby. I tightened my scarf around my neck that shielded me from the October wind and walked to my porch.

"Jojo." He said jogging to me from his car and I grinned a bit before opening the door with him behind me. I've been a little on edge when it came to him since my encounter with Javon and I kinda wanted to be left alone.

"Hey." I mumbled opening the door seeing Nicki on the couch holding a sleeping Jaylen.

"Hey sis."

"Hi." I said walking over to her and picking up Jaylen.

"He always wanna be all on me." She said getting up and I smiled small.

"I'll see you later though I gotta meet up with Anthony." I nodded. Any other day id be on her about her new boo but I wasn't in the mood.

"Bye Jo. Bye Amod."

"Bye." We both said as she left.

I went upstairs putting Jaylen in his bed and closing his door going into my room.

"Why you acting like this?" Amod asked as I went into my room and I rolled my eyes sitting on the edge of my bed and taking off my shoes. I wasn't gonna tell him about my job because then I'd have to tell him about why I lost my job.

"Like what Amod?"

"Walking around with a attitude and shit." He said and I rolled my eyes about to walk into the bathroom but he grabbed my arm.

"Leave me the fuck alone Amod take your ass home."

"Nah you not gonna talk to me like you better chill with all that shit."

"Or what?" He sucked his teeth throwing my arm down and I rolled my eyes.

"Fuck all this man I don't need this shit from you."

"From me? What does that mean huh? You seeing somebody else?"

"You know what? Yea."

"Yea?" I said knowing I didn't hear him correctly.

"Yea."

"Why?" I said standing infront of him before he could leave.

"Because you too fucking much Jo. I can't handle you and I don't know why I gave this another chance. You got too much baggage and you act like I owe you something." I scoffed shaking my head looking at my feet.

"I slept with Javon." He raised an eye brow stepping closer to me.

"What?"

"You heard me. When we went to Orlando we fucked. You not the only one who got one up."

"Nah I am. You stupid as fuck Jo. Y'all 'fucked' and that's exactly what he see you as. A fuck. You got no respect for yourself or a relationship and I shoulda realized that back then. I wish you the best though." He said before walking around me and out the door. I shook my head hearing the front door slam and I sat on my bed putting my head in my hands. I wasn't gonna cry though I refused. I didn't wanna cry or feel sorry for myself anymore so everything was what it was.
***

I was awakened by the sound of my front door closing. I scrunched up my eyebrows knowing I was probably hearing things. Looking at the clock that read 12:06a.m I quickly got out of bed walking down the hall and to Jaylen's room. I turned on the light and almost cried when I realized he wasn't in bed.

"Jaylen?!" I screamed running out the room and down the stairs.

"Jaylen?!" I yelled throughout the house but I didn't get an answer.

I ran outside in my bra and boyshorts not caring who seen me but I needed to know where my child was. I scrunched up my eyebrows when I seen the drivers door of a blue sedan close and I tried to run to it but there was no hope. They sped away leaving marks in the road and I ran my hand through my hair letting tears run down my face.

"Shit." I screamed before running back into my house and running upstairs and grabbing my phone.

I dialed Javon's number and tapped my foot against the hardwood floor awaiting an answer.

"Wassup Jo?" He said with sleep evident in his voice.

"Jaylen's gone!" I cried into the phone and I heard shuffling in his background.

"The fuck you mean he's gone? Gone where?" Just then I realized that when Amod left the door wasn't locked. I was so upset that I didn't go downstairs to lock my door. Someone probably walked into my house and took my child. That alone made me cry anymore.

"I don't know but he's gone and a blue sedan was outside and sped away when I went outside."

"Fuck man!" He yelled and I could tell he had hit something due to the loud thud in his background.

"I'm on my way."
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