Damaged

Chapter 10

Have you ever dreamt of a world so peaceful and quiet it seemed as if nothing ever existed? I was in this place right now. I was awake but yet I wasnt. I could hear and feel but I couldn't open my eyes or move. What was this? What was happening? "Okay..now" I hear a rusty voice say. Oh no, is my dream coming true? I start to feel a surge of adrenaline rushing through my body. I open my eyes as I suck in a huge breathe awakening from my slumber. I start panting and breathing deep. What did they do to me? I was breathing fast and sweating. I was so worked up an I had no where to go;I was in restraints. By the time my eyes adjusted, what seemed to be two people left my room. I start looking around in confusion. Where was i? "The hospital." I hear Blair say, almost as if he was reading my mind. I jump as he lays his hand and drags his fingers through my hair. His ouch was electric and made me want more. But why was he here? "Give me answers" I say in a harsh, dry voice. "Excuse me?" He says while moving his line of vision to connect with my eyes. "Why are you here?" I ask sternly. "And I don't want bullshit, cookie cutter answers either. I want the real deal." I look at him arching my eyebrows and biting back tears. "Because I can't just.. Just leave you here. You have no one else and I care about you too much to just let you be alone" is this some kind of sick joke? Who is paying him? "Mmmhmm.. Right" I say sarcastically and rude. I don't have time for his bullshit..or maybe I did. "How long have I been here?" I say as I cut him off. "Levi.. We will talk about that later." "NO! I want to know NOW!" I scream, I don't need this right now. "You have been here for 3 and half months." He says with sorrow on the edge of his skiff tone. "You took some pills and you drank... When you collapsed in my arms I didn't know what to do. I dragged you to your couch and saw the bottles.. I stuck my fingers down your throat but that didnt help. I called 911.. You were in a coma for 3 and a half months, levi. And I have stayed with you every single day.." He finishes off as he wipes a tear from his cheek that he accidentally let slip. I'm jut sitting there in shock. And I see the pain in his eyes. Did he actually care about me? None of this made sense at all. "Why do you care?" I say abruptly. I want answers from this kid. "Because I do." "No that isn't good enough" I screech out. "Just drop it okay" he says weakly.. "Well fuck" I say trailing off. "I'm happy you are awake now" I hear him say as he stands up. "I'm going to go get a drink, I will be back in a few." He says as he closes the door. Now is my chance, I have got to get out of here. I notice my ankle restraints are off and my wrist restraints are loose. I shake my hands and they come off. I weakly take my hand and pull off the IV and the patches. I sit up and get rushed with dizziness. I swing my legs off the side of the bed as my toes clip the floor. The floor was cold and hard. I try to stand up and I fall. I land on my wrist and it snaps. I scream in pain as I look down at the clearly broken wrist. I throw myself on the chair and use the little bit of strength I had left to pull myself up. I start to walk slowly and unsteadily. I pace around my bed getting used to the feeling of walking and then I head towards to door. My wrist is bleeding and the holes from the IV is gushing and I'm already feeling weaker. I go to the door and open it. I step out and turn to see if anyone is around. Blair is talking to some doctors and I start the opposite way. The door bangs shut and I pick up my pace hoping he won't see me. I try to run but end up just fast walking for now. Blair must have saw me and started screaming after me bolting in a fast run after me. I rounded the corner and start to run, I'm not as fast as I usually am considering the circumstances but I manage to keep my distance from Blair; so I think. Blair rounds the corner and picks up his speed. His hand grasps my shoulder and I slow down, there was no use to try to run. I start to cry and start hitting myself. He pulls me into a tight hug and we both slide down to the floor. He starts to sob but I'm hysterically crying now. He wraps his arm around me and holds down my hands preventing me from hitting myself anymore and he rest his hand on my head and lays my head on his strong chest . His fast breathing and racing heart beat are reassuring to me as I lay there. I am still crying as the doctors round the corner and see the site. I am bleeding and crying in Blair's arms but right at this moment I feel at peace. He is reassuringly whispering in my ear "everything is going to be okay" and for right now, I actually believed everything would turn out okay.