Damaged

Chapter 15

Drink after drink I start to notice the room spinning a bit. Blair was all over me, kissing me and taking shots of vodka out of my belly button. His lips were all over my body and his hands tickled every inch of my skin. If i wasnt drunk I would probably feel like I was on fire but I'm numb right now. I kiss him every place he likes: his neck, his wrist, his hips, his cheek, his nose, and his forehead. Blair suddenly gets up and lifts me into his arms and carries me to the bedroom. He tosses me on the bed and climbs on top of me, holding me down a bit. His hands run over my body over and over again like he was trying to memorize all my curves and goodies. He slipped my shit off and undid my pants. I gently took his shirt off and threw it on the floor. His tongue played with mine as our bodies were pressed close together. This wasn't going to be a hit and run.. This was love. He slide my shorts off so I was naked in bed and his body was pressed tightly against mine. I slide his short off so he was in his boxers. As his kisses started to go lower and lower there was a knock on the door. Blair sighs, kisses me on the cheek one last time, an head for the door. He runs his fingers through his hair as he walks. He opens the door and I lose sight of him and the stranger that was here. I heard slight mumbling but nothing I understood. Then I heard a voice getting loud and anxious; it was Blair's voice. He said "wait, what are you doing?!!" And then all I heard was a gun shot. I jumped and blinked my eyes trying to think of what just happened. I quickly get up, throw on my boxers and head for the door. The blood drained from my face and I was shaking and weak. As I'm three steps from the floor I start to walk in a puddle of blood. I walk faster and anxious, breathing fast and hard. It felt like there was no air to breath. I swung the door open and froze. My eyes started to water but not one single tear fell. I was in too much shock for my body to react. Before I knew it I was on my ands and knees while I rubbed my hands on Blair's still warm body. I cradled his head in my hands and started to bawl. I didn't know what had happened but all I knew was Blair was in my hands, dead. There was a gunshot through his right lung. I started rubbing his face and screaming his name but I knew it was no use. I looked out the door to see if the killer was still there but there was no one in sight all along the street. I catch my eye on something in the bushes but shrug it off and return to Blair's body. My hands hold him as I shake and cry. Why? Why would someone do such a thing? I don't deserve this! I don't need this! I start to control my sob knowing what is done is done. I'm going to be a complete new person now. I'm in so much shock an instantly my walls go up. I will never love someone again. I put Blair's body down and I stand up. I'm covered in blood and I accidentally let a tear fall from my eye. I walk over to the kitchen and call 911. I go back to the door and try not to look at blair. My walk is calm and my face is blank. I stand outside, waiting for the ambulance. I knew they couldn't save him.. I looked around, trying to find someone or something. Then the thing in the bushes caught my eyes again. I reached down and picked it up. It was a shinny gold charm bracelet that had worn spots and looked old. I lost all of my breath and it seemed like the world was caving in on me. The blood drained from my face, my eyes dried out, my knees started to shake and my spine stiffened. I held the charm bracelet I gave to Liz for her 13th birthday.