Damaged

Chapter 24

I grabbed a hold on reality and began to finish the dishes. Once I was finished, I walked into the living room and found Liz's IPad. I unlocked it and began going through her apps. I wasn't trying to inspect for anything but i got curious and began going through her social media. I was over reacting, She did love me and she had nothing to hide. There was one app i hadn't checked yet. i opened her notes app and began scrolling through, skimming for anything important. There was a note with a star next to it and i wrinkled my forehead in curiosity. I opened the notes and their was 4 numbers listed with names.. Familiar names at that. These four simple names i saw made my body tremble, my eyes water and my stomach turn. Andy, Brett, Blair and Levi.  My name was listed with my cell phone number, so was Brett's. Who was Blair? Where has Andy been? Where has Brett been? I miss Andy! I need Andy! Where is he?! I dropped her IPad and began feeling dizzy. My hands started trembling and I began to feel lost. My chest began to ache and i lost feeling in my hands. Then I was put in a painful memory.. 

-----Memory-----

I was drunk, driving with Andy. We are laughing and having fun. I have had a little too much to drink and I'm going a Little too fast. I glance at Andy, not paying any attention to the road. Then it happens. We crash over the railing of the highway. I see glass fly everywhere and I see Andy fly out of the window. Panic filled my body and the inevitable ending had came. The next thing my body lets me see is little, sad, Andy.. walking in the hallway, minding his own god damn business. His left side of his face was a little droopy and his walk was a little unsteady but he was still Andy.. my Andy. What happened next made me sick.. Something happened, and he was pushing a kid. Next thing i fucking know, he pulls a gun out and shoots Andy. HE FUCKING SHOOTS ANDY! I rush over to him and cradle his head while holding the wound crying "no no no. This cant be happening" but sure enough it was. My body felt cold and empty and the memory began to fade. Next thing i see I'm in the middle of a street, with a car rec next to me. My mum walks over to me and i have never seen her more beautiful. "Levi, sweetheart, you need to wake up. You're scaring your girlfriend." I wrinkle my forehead and sit up. "Mum, I am up. What are you talking about?" I stand up and walk towards her. I lean in with open arms to hug her but i just walk through her. "mum?" i ask. "you need to wake up Levi. WAKE UP!" She was yelling at me, nostrils flared and eyes wide. I fell onto the ground and my body feels weightless. I close my eyes to hold back the stinging tears and reopen them to see Brett standing over me. He places his hands on my shoulders and starts shaking them. "wake up, Levi! Wake up!" He is screaming. His voice goes from harsh to soft; too soft to be his own.  

----reality----

I start to feel my body weigh heavy and my breathe return steady. I started coughing and open my eyes to find Liz over my body sobbing hysterically, calling my name. once she saw my eyes open she smiled wide and bent down more and hugged me tight. "Levi, you were shaking on the floor. I didn't know what to do. i was so scared." She whispers in between sobs, into my ear. I try to remember what happened, but it hurts my head to even try to recall anything. All i knew was Andy was gone and there was a spot inside me where he had left. Liz pulls away from me and i sit up. She grabs my hand, and i begin to feel her shaking pulse through my arm. I lean towards her and hug her while whispering in her ear. "It will be okay baby girl, don't worry. I'm okay now." I may not have been completely honest, but sometimes you have to lie to help someone else. She smiled and i heard her chuckle slightly. She pulled from the hug and climbed into my lap; her soft legs brushing my arms. "You were shaking and screaming in pain and terror. Your face looked so hurt and your body was trembling. you were crying and you were cold and blue. I was scared. you weren't breathing or anything. I didn't know what to do. you must have been having a seizer and i was so scared babe. Please dont ever do that again." She was rambling in my ear and crying on my shoulder. i felt so bad, but i was relieved to have her in my arms again. I placed my arms tightly around her and hugged her tight. "everything is going to be okay now." I say with a smile on my face. " What did you get me from the mall?" I ask, with a faint smile. She chuckled lightly and stood up, grabbing my hand and guiding me to the door. she picked up a bag she had dropped in panic and brought it to the counter in the kitchen. She pulled out a lovely blue sweater and a new pair of black skinnies. She also had a new pair of blue vanns to match my sweater, usually im not a sweater kind of guy, but this sweater was stylish. I Smile and begin to thank her. "Thanks babe, i love you.' I pulled her agaisnt my body and placed my lips on her's. My chest burned where her's was placed against mine. My lips tingled with fire as she kissed me back. Was this a never ending love? I pulled away and kissed her nose ever so gently and grabbed the bag. i went into the room and laid down on the bed; I was suddenly extremely tired. the memory of the IPad filled my mind and questions raced through me. Who was Blair? And where was Brett? I sat up to see Liz standing in the doorway, walking towards me. "hey, can we talk" I wrinkle my forehead and scoot over while patting next to me. She walks over and sits in my lap instead while kissing my cheek. I shutter in pleasure and refocuse my mind. I clear my throat to begin this impossible question, How could i explain what i was doing in her business. i ponder a while before she looks at me with worried eyes. "You know i love you" I begin with, ducking my head, waiting for a responce. "yea" her soft voice speechs while grabbing my chin to angle my face towards hers. "well, I was on your IPad. I wasnt trying to snoop, but one thing turned into another." The guilt was bubbling into my throat and i was losing the calm mask i had on my face. Her eyess changed slightly; more narrow. She chuckled a little before replying. "Babe, anything in this house is not just mine..It's now our's. You can look through anything you want." a soft smile plays across her face and i found myself smiling as well. "Who is Blair? and..where is Brett" The impossible questioons were asked; my words hanging in the air. "Boo, Brett is gone. He went to jail. I thoguht i told you already." He forehead winkled and a shutter went through me. Brett was in jail? wow.. dumb fuck.. But..who was Blair. My heart ached whenever i said his name and i didnt know why. did i know Blair? I didnt think i did but yet again, I dont remember much anymore. I looked at her.. waiting for her answer on Blair. Everytime i thoguht of him, my eyes stung and my heart ached. Why?   I played with her hair gently and she opened her mouth to say more. "Blair is a guy i met one time online. He was a tottal  weirdo and tried to take my bestfriend's boyfriend from her. I think he moved away to japan anways." She says gently chuckling and shrugging her shoulders. hmm. Japan. Sounds like a place I would love to go to. Maybe one day.. with Liz.

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Hey, guys and gals! Sorry, i haven't posted a lot. I have been going through so much and i am so fucking stressed. A lot of personal problems and bullshit. but its whatever.. i hope you are liking where my story is going. Before you get upset Liz and Levi are together, think about what Levi is going through. Think of what he remembers.. you cant blame him.