Damaged

Chapter 3

I get to the graveyard, bawling my eyes out. What have I done. I caused Andy's death. It was all my fault. How could have I been so stupid?! I run up to his tombstone and read the inscriptions...

"Andy Dean Mitchell

January 13, 1995- November 2, 2012.

'Imperfection is beauty' "

God damn I miss him so much. He was the only one who truly got me. I sit down and lean my back on his tombstone and think of that night. I instantly start to cry.. Damn me, why did I have to go and fuck up the best thing I had? I look at my bag and grab my laptop out of it. Also, while I'm in there, I grab another Valium pill. I pull open my blog and start to write ...

"Hey darlings, I know it's been 2 days but I have been super busy. With the bitches at school and my drunken mum constantly nagging me over things that don't matter, I just haven't had the time to update. School started recently. I absolutely hate everyone. Except this one person. They are so perfect only if they knew... I got a whole bunch of hate mail.yay.. I'm thinking of going to a big ass party down at the lake. If any of you guys are interested in going don't be shy. At school I have just about had it. Every single day is living hell. But thank god I am with my brother right now. I couldnt survive without him..I love all you, I will talk to you later

Xo's -Levi"

I slowly shut my laptop sobbing quietly to myself. If they only knew the shit I go through.. I get up and wipe off the tombstone and kiss it. " I love you andy, I will see you tomorrow" I grab my things and start walking. As I am 4 blocks from home I see his house, Blair's. looks like he is having a party of his own. Fun. I keep walking till I get to Brett's house. I bang on the doors while yelling "my pussy needs you baby" in a joking matter. His mum opens the door...

"Hello levi, Brett isn't home. He went to the lake. Oh and next time, make sure you moan a little more to make it more believable." She says with a wink. God I love her. "Thanks Cindy, and will do!" I take off on Brett's skateboard. I'm sure he wouldn't mind. I skate faster and faster to my house. As soon as I walk in I get a slap to my face. "What in the Sam hell do you think you are doing skipping school?" My mom yells at me. "I was sick I didn't feel well at all mum. I've got to go get Brett" I say as I jump up the stairs to my room. I throw on some black skinnies and a Bring Me the Horizon tank top with some purple vans. I throw on a purple beanie and some cologne and I run downstairs. "Bye mum bye pa!" I run out the door. Shit I forgot my Valium, oh well. I hope Brett has some. I start to skate towards the lake.

Once I get there I see more then the whole school there. There is 5 bond fires going all across the beach and people everywhere but sure enough, I spot brett. He is ontop of a truck, drunk as fuck, singing Taylor swift. I run up to him, pull him off by his ankles and knee him right in the dick.. " that's for not waiting for me, aye got any Valium?" He hands me 5 pills. But he knows that won't be enough. He also hands me 2 ecstasy pills and a bottle of jack. I chug down the bottle and pills and look over. Blair and his friends are here. As the party goes on I notice Blair is a little fucked up. "Come on man you can do this you know you can do this. No you can't your pathetic! No stop!" I think to myself. I walk over to Blair and he starts to walk away to behind the trucks where it is just us. We both know he couldn't be spotted with me. "Hey" I say nervously

"Hey. Why the fuck do you have to be around me? You will crash my rep."

" i...I am sorry. I just wanted to see how you were doing"

As I say that my stupid hormones get the best of me.. I reach over and put my hand on his shoulder and my other hand around his waist. I give him a hug and he hugs me back. As I pull away I kiss his cheek. I put my hands around his waist and start to fill him all over. He kind of smirks at me and starts to move his hands over my body, too. He looks at me with his gorgeous eyes and starts to lean in...

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