Damaged

Chapter 30

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Blair was on top of me; his hands running over my body and his tongue exploring my mouth. I wanted him sooo bad. I kissed him deep and long. He took of my shirt and also his. I loved his body very much. My hands were exploring all over and he slipped my jeans off. I took his off and began kissing his neck. My breathe was short and shallow and so was Blair's. His touch was full of fire and his kisses made my body warm. Right when things were getting heated, someone knocked on the door. "Shit" I muttered. Blair hopped off of me and I sat up. He looked back at me and looked sad. He went to the door and opened it. I heard small mumbles but nothing much. Then i heard a huge crack of a pistol. I saw Blair's limp body fall to the floor and blood begin to pour. I started crying instantly and hopped out of bed; running towards him. I got on my knees and cradled his limp head and began screaming "No nono! Noooo!" this couldn't be real. My chest hurt and my eyes burned. Numbness started in my hands and traveled through my body. Once it reached my head, My tears stopped. Reality set in. Blair was killed and I would never seen him again. One tear escaped my eye before i let him down. I sat up and called 911. They would remove his body and Blair would be gone. I put on some clothes and Went back to his body. I stared into his eyes until I heard the sirens in the distance. Once they removed him and left, I had no feelings. I was simply in a black hole and I didn't think i would ever leave this place. I reached for the door to close it, when the sun struck something shinny in the bush. I went over to examine it and it was a bracelet. It looked very familiar. It was the bracelet I gave to Liz when we were younger. This was all of Liz's fault. Liz did this. How could she hurt me so bad? why would she do this?

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I jump up from the bed fast, choking on my own spit. My heart was aching and i was sobbing to myself. I fell out of bed and was gasping for air. My body was consumed with pain. Pain was everywhere. My eyes were crying tears; soo many i thought they would never stop. I was on my hands and knees when i felt the soft touch of Liz on my back. I jumped and scrambled from her. I scrambled to the corner and drew my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. Liz started walking towards me faster and I got nervous. Was she going to hurt me too? Oh no, she cant hurt me; she wouldn't! Would she? I mean.. She fucking killed Blair..Killed Blair! I didn't know what to think anymore. She bent down and placed a hand on my knee and i flinched away. "What.. what is wrong, babe?" her hushed tone was ere. I didn't like this at all. "Get away from me." I snapped while shoving my way out of the room and to the living room. I found a bag and started filling it with the clothes i had in the living room. "What the hell are you doing, Levi?" Her voice was sharp but i didn't care. She killed my one true love. I didn't love Liz. No.. I loved Blair. And she took that from me. she grabbed my wrist and looked me in the eye. "What the hell do u think you are doing?" Her tone was deep and painful. i could have swore i heard a whimper escape my mouth. "don't touch me" I said very rough. Her eyes got more narrow and her lips tightened more. before i could see it coming, her hand hit my face so hard i thought i might be bleeding. I fell to the ground in pain but gathered myself. I stood up and quickly walked to the bedroom and bagged me more clothes. I rushed to the kitchen and grabbed a small amount of food and placed it in the bag. another blow from her fist hit my cheekbone and I heard a crack. When did she get so strong? "stop! You killed Blair! you fucking killed him! I am leaving and you will never see me again." i was shouting. Something turned in her eyes and she looked at me good and long. "what did you just say?" her tone was scary but i tried to act strong. "You killed Blair.. Goodbye." I started walking for the door when her hands grabbed my shoulders. she spun me around and hit me one more time. I pushed her into the couch and turned the knob. Before i could get it open all of the way she slammed into me and locked the door while nailing me in the nuts. I was paralyzed. "How did you know that?" She asked me, terror rushing through my body. "I saw it. I have been having dreams.. memories. Everything has started coming back to me. " She climbed on top of me, holding me down. I was so weak considering everything that has happened recently. She was.. so so strong. I didn't know where it all came from. "and you didn't tell me?" I gulped loud but it wasn't loud enough to mask the sound of her open hand making contact with my left cheekbone.I tried to get up but struggled. She laughed and I started to whimper. "Well, while we are on this topic. I did kill him. And I enjoyed it very much. I had the biggest smile on my face when i pulled the trigger. man, just thinking about it is giving me goose bumps." Her smile made me cringe. She lifted one arm and reached behind her. She pulled out a nice, shinny, black pistol and waved it in front of my face. "I used this baby, too. She has great power behind her." She smiled again and I began to sob. "No no, please don't do this." I tried to beg and beg but she wasn't buying it. She got off of me and stood up, helping me up also. "Walk to the kitchen. If you try anything stupid, I will shoot you." I held back a loud whimper but continued to sob more. I am going to die today. This thought ran through my mind over and over again. I went to the kitchen and stood in front of the cabinet. the fact a gun was pointed to my back made sweat bead on my forehead. My knees were trembling and my hands were shaking. I cant believe she was going to kill me.. yet again, I could see it now that I know she killed Blair. Blair.. a whimper escaped from my mouth and she pushed the gun into my back. "Open the cabinet and take out every bottle of pills you see." I did as asked. i pulled out 4 bottles of pain relievers and set them down. "Now, take out the bottle of whiskey." Her voice was stern and i didn't want to disobey her. I pulled out a bottle of whiskey and my sobs got louder.. I knew what she was going to do. "Take every single pill and down the whole bottle. now" Her voice made me jump. My whimpers got louder and my sobs got worse. I did as asked. I knew i had roughly an hour to live before i died. Did Liz know that, too? "good boy" Her voice was now soft. She leaned in and kissed my cheek which was covered in tears. "Walk to the couch." She ordered me to and I did it. I sat on the couch on one end and she sat on the other side. "Now lay down in my lap" I was so confused but i would rather die on my own then to be killed by her. She started rubbing my hair and mumbling song lyrics to me for almost 40 minutes. My eyes hurt and my body was starting to go numb. The inevitable ending was close. She placed the gun down; she knew it too. she cleared her throat, preparing herself for a speech. "you know, Levi.. I killed Blair because he wasn't good enough for you. And as you can tell, you aren't good enough for me" My whimpers got louder and she tried to shh me. "I never really loved you. It was all an act. And you got the best part in the play. Since you aren't good enough for me, you don't deserve me so you have to go. Now that you know the truth, its time to go." I moved a little to stop the twitching of my arm and she grabbed the gun and placed it on my back. I was in so much pain, I kind of just wanted her to shoot me then and there. 10 minutes passed and my state hasn't changed. i mumbled something and she didn't hear it so she leaned forward. "what baby? any last words?" She says, with a smirk. "The funny thing is.. I won. no matter what you did, I still won. Because I died on my own, and you didn't kill me." I started laughing the most i could and I could see the rage in her face grow. It grew and grew until I thought she was going to explode. "I always win" She whispered in my ear. She started laughing and I knew that no matter what she thought, I had won. With the simple crack of the gun; a simple pull of the trigger, She had won.. at least, she thought. but now..I had won because I am finally free.

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Hey, Guys. wow.. I finally finished! When I started this story, i didn't know where I wanted to go with it, but i soon planned it out. I really hope you enjoyed my story as much as I did writing it. I love you and thanks sooo much for all of the support. Im going to write another story soon. I am so sorry about all the spelling errors and things like that, they aren't intentional at all. I also hope you enjoy that one. I love you guys, and I really hope you loved my story. xoxo- Megs