~Forever~(Finished)

chapter 15

I turn away from Isaac, his words still ringing through my mind.

He chose her over me, and I can't ever look past that..

"Sabrina!!" He blurts out, breathing heavily.

"Leave me alone" I demand out to him as I turn away.

"Can you just hear me out?"

"Hear what???how you chose Amanda over me?!?! Who even does that!?!?! I thought you liked me, but I was just wrong! You go out with the girl i hate just cuz you're mad"
I yell at him, putting air quotations around the word mad.

"You don't understand..you see I..."

I cut him off, not even wanting to hear him out

"I'm done." I finally decided, pushing my hair behind my ear.

"What do you mean you're done?" He questions, a puzzled look on his face.

"I can't do this anymore.. I-I can't be with somebody who just leaves me for my b-bully" I stutter out,as my throat suddenly turns extremely dry.

Why did life have to be like this? I could of lived a normal drama free life,but I risked it all.. for somebody who doesn't care.

I walk away, not wanting to be in the conversation any more. As I'm about to head inside, I hear Isaac mutter something that changed my whole point of view on the situation...

It.. was for our relationship, but you will never know how.

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To this very single day I still wonder what Isaac meant by his words. How could his horrible actions benefit me?? There is no logical explanation for what he did, and I guess he doesn't see that. I sit down on the couch, putting on the tv. I sit in silence watching, as my mind is distracted.

I haven't talked to Isaac for weeks now, but I guess it's for the better. I highly doubt even a thought about me slips his mind, but it doesn't matter..it's over. About 10 minutes later I slip upstairs,tiredness filling my eyes. When I arrive in the bedroom I plop on to my bed, sadness consuming my head. As im laying in bed facing the ceiling, I start to think about Isaac. I try to swallow the saliva down my throat, but it seems impossible. I knew what was coming.. I was gonna cry. I sob into my pillow, thinking about how much I need Isaac..

I need to find him again.

Isaac's pov:

I am shaking as i lay back into my bed, my cheeks stained with tears. I ruined everything with Sabrina... I ruined the whole relationship.I hope I get to explain my actions to Sabrina one day, how everything was for her.. for us. What I did is horrible from her perspective, but for me it wasn't a choice. I cry every night, hoping Sabrina will come back in to my life.. it's probably impossible,but I really do need her. I miss her sparkling eyes, filled with hope for the world. How her hair falls perfectly down her shoulders, how she has natural beauty without trying, and most importantly her confidence in herself. More tears fall down my cheeks, thinking about what I'm missing out on.. I can't believe my own actions still, even though I completed them.

I did it because...

I feel so evil when I end it like this..mwahaha. sorry guys it's been a couple days, I just started school today. Since I now have school I thought I should develop an updating schedule. I would love to hear your guys suggestions!! I'm thinking about posting 3/4 times a week. Comment some ideas for my posting schedule and I may just pick your idea ;) i might not do a schedule, but post whenever I can. It's all up to you guys!! So I will update again tomorrow or the day after. Enjoy and see you next time

~Kayla :)