Story of a Wallflower : Freshman Year

September 5, 2015

Peace. Peace at last. It's been along time since I've had been left alone without bad thought coming to my head. But I have that right now.

I don't like righting when I'm really made because It's harder for me to right about things in a way that's not so "emotional" or biased.

Life has been total crap since the last time I wrote. Its got so bad that i had to cry myself to sleep earlier this week. And I'm starting to get more thoughts in my head. Honestly the main thing giving me these thoughts are my family. Suprisingly I have no problems or drama at school. My grades are even really great.

I honestly don't know if these are "just thoughts" or I'm suffering from depression or something. I don't know. I'm not a doctor.

It's too many events and stories to tell you about that gave me these horrible things in my head but I'm going to some it up as much as I can.

My dad called me a bitch

My dad yells at me for not reason being

My mom has some serious trust issues with me

I lost a bet to my history teacher (the bet was if I heard a Mozart piece before and if I have I had to join the wrestling team. Apparently Mozart made twinkle twinkle little star. Oh yea and my history teacher is the wrestling coach)
My mom is trying to force me to eat me. (Even threatens me)

My "friends" jeep telling me that I won't win homecoming princess.

My dad sent my friends dad to go up to my school and pull me out of class ( #SocialSuicide)

And
My dad is slowly ruining my social life.

Then I found out Johnnie Guilbert and Alex Dorame are dating and I don't ship that. Because Johnnie shall be mine!

The last one wasn't as serious but it happened and I was kinda blind sided by that. They've been dating since November and I just found out.

I just remembered that some good things actually did happen. I'm too lazy to rewrite this so I guess uhhh yea.

Club rush was last week and I signed up for gay straight alliance club, french club, Spanish club, dance club (but my dad pulled me out of it), spirit club, auto shop club, and California scholarship federation (CSF).

I signed up for alot of clubs so I can stay busy and spend less time at home and it is also good on a college application.

My English teacher wants the class to right an autobiography about an event in our life that made an impact on us (good or bad.) It's hard for me to remember stuff from the past. I'm going to write about the first time going to warped tour. Although I honestly don't remember what happened I wrote it down, which I hope would make it easier for me.

If you don't know by now, I'm running for homecoming princess. I hope I win so I could prove my "friends" wrong. Homecoming is October 3rd by the way.

So that's all the the stuff that has been happening lately. And right now I'm just laying in bed listening to about that life by Atilla.

Hopefully good days come soon....real soon.