ASLEEP YET AWAKE

soulmate - can I have two?

Ryan was not answering my calls and the wait was killing me. The weeks had gone by quickly widening the gap between us. We were close . So very close. But the work load drifting in our life does not allow us enough time together. I love him. And i know he loves me too. We cannot be apart. I do not shy away from admitting that he loves me more. Infact i am proud of it. It feels so good to know that someone is always there for you no matter what. He had been the anchor of my heart. Always being the more sensible one . He always ensured that my life went smooth removing all the obstacles from my path. 14 months of blissful togetherness had brought us close. He is no more different from me...

He is me...

My days start with him and end with him. I smell of him. And if i close my eyes i can even smell his after shave. The best part of my day is when i am in his arms.

Oh boy ! I am truly in love with my guy ! God ! He is my life , my love , my hunny bunny . He is like chocochip in my cookies and cherry on the top of my ice cream.

Trngg trngg...

The phone rang breaking me out of my thoughts. I fumbled throgh the things kept in my bag . It was him . A smile lit up my face.

"I had been missing you like any thing. Where were you ?"

"I am sorry. Dad wanted to meet me urgently."

"Oh! Anything serious ?"

"Ummm... lets catch up. Meet me in the cafe at 5 ?"

"Cool. Love ya"

and i hung up.

....

"Miss lara seaford you are late. I had been waiting for like 7 minutes." It was mia . Crazy as ever.

"oh yeah ! M sorry"

"Oh come on . Spill." She ordered pointing at the smile playing on my lips.

"Well its nothing just ryan wanted to catch up at 5"

"Uhmm... lover boy "

I laughed it off. Mia and me are best friend since like forever. She is the other part of me. I value her very much. She is so special. Eversince we shared lunch in kindergarten we have been inseparable. I love her. She is more like a sister.

After attending a few classes i rushed back home. After all i had a date. My guy would be waiting. As much as i was excited i had a feeling somewhere deep inside that this date is not going to go well...pushing that feeling further deep inside i began browsing through my closet. Silently praying for luck - for me and my ryan. My ryan.

....

I reached at 5:10. My heart skipped a beat when i saw him leaning against the wall. A small smile playing on his lips. God ! How does he look so adorable all the time. I reached him. He packed me in a close embrace and i planted a kiss on his cheeck. After whispering some lovey words we entered the cafe. The air from the air conditioners hitting our face providing a much needed relief from the scorching heat.

We took a seat near the transparent windows. I was lost in thoughts as i saw the city gushing by. Life is definitely busy in cities. I shifted my gaze to ray. He was fumbling through his car keys . A sure sign that he was nervous. I reached forward and gently placed my hand on his. He recoiled at the sudden touch but did not remove his hand. I could see a pain in his eyes. Something i could not understand. The intensity of pain in his eyes caused a dull ache in my heart. I wanted to drink all his sorrows away. He was mine. What was he keeping from me... his eyes were sombre. I could not remove my gaze. My eyes searching his eyes..finding unknown answers. As if trying to erase the hurt they saw in them.

"I am going..."suddenly he spoke. His voice harsh with traces of pain.

I swallowed the gulp in my throat. The moment kept me paralysed. Atlast i gathered enough courage and whispered, "what do you mean? "

That was all i could ask...

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Short right ??
But its just the begining...