Without You

Chapter 7

"Allison we need to talk." Jason said in a demanding tone.

Why do we need to talk?

"What is it Jason?" I asked.

"Why do you hate me?" When he asked it, he seemed vulnerable, and genuine. A new look for Jason that completely surprised me. I did not let that mute my emotions. 

"You don't know why I hate you? You are a self centered, sexist, perverted, a-hole."

"Oh does little Allison not like to swear?" He taunted, his cocky self back, "I am a hot a*sshole."

"I don't swear. There isn't a problem with that. Are you are far from hot you self centered narcissist." Lies. Why am I lying to myself, he's hotter than... hot? I have nothing.

"I never said there was a problem, I actually find your censored words cute." Did he just call me cute? "Well if you ever want to come over you have my number. Bye little Allison." And with that Jason walks away leaving me confused. I thought he hated me, and now he is asking me to come over? He is too much for me to think about. He just wants a one night stand, and he's not getting it.

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After practice I went to the barn, where I had been sleeping for the last few nights, well more like the past week. Javi promised me he would make it to my game. In turn I would have to go and see the councilor at school to figure out where I am going to live because apparently the barn 'isn't a suitable home for a teenage girl'.

"Holy shit Allison come here!" I heard Javi yell so I climbed down the ladder as fast as I could and ran over.

"What!?" I yell and Reed is standing there smiling and Javi has a huge smile on his face and is also looking shocked.

"O-oh-m-my-g-g-godddd Allie, Leah, Santa Anita." He yells. He sounds like a fan girl. Ew. Wait Santa Anita?

"What?" I say confused.

Reed speaks up, "The horse racing commissioner is willing to pay to ship you and Leah to Santa Anita for the derby."

"Why? Why do they want us?" I say excited. I might get to go to California.

"Well they think it will help the industry being a girl on a filly and it will draw attention. He is also aware that we couldn't pay to get out of here so he said they will pay for us. Do you want to go?" Reed asks.

"I would die to go. When is it? Do I miss school or football?"

"That is the problem, or one of them, here are the things you will have to think about. Who's custody will you be in? Will they let you go? You will miss 1 football game, 3 days of school."

"I don't know who's custody I am in, chances are they won't let me go. I have a back up quarterback and can miss a few excused days. Can Leah do it? We just raced last weekend, she will only have a small break. How many days do we have there before we race?"

"She will be okay, well you know her better than me. You will get there Wednesday at 6 PM and the race is Saturday afternoon. Another issue is your identity. Allison how long are you going to keep it secret. There will be press all over you 24/7 you can't hide much longer."

"I know I know but I have to try. I need to keep the two lives separate."

"Okay Allie, I trust you. One more question when are you 16?"

"2 Monday's." I say grinning and I saw Javi smile too knowing that I will get to be my normal age and won't have to hide my age much longer.

"Alright night Allison."

I went back up to the loft smiling, I'll see Leah in the morning. I turn on my phone and see 2 texts.

YourBestFrandJess: Hey Allie. I am just making sure your okay. I mean about what the guys say, it isn't true. See u tomorrow. Night.

Dang is wish I could tell her about Santa Anita. She's actually really sweet. My first real friend since Haley and it's refreshing. I take a deep breathe, get rid of the memories. I lie down in the hay and start singing,

I had wanted to go to a place where all the demons go
Where the wind don't change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you're taught to cry in your pillow
But I'll survive

I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

I wish I was actually alive. Not a broken girl who's heart will never be repaired.
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