Without You

Chapter 27

The silence on the bus was nice but it didn't last long.

"Allison?"

"What Jake?" I snap. The whole bus was still silent but us.

"I-I-wanted to uh say uh that I was um sorry." Jake says.

Do I put up a fight or forgive him? I can't keep a grudge for my life, but maybe this could be practice? Who was I kidding?

"It's okay, want to sit with me?" I say. Weak Allie, that was weak.

"Sure." He says and sits next to me. "You did great today."

"Thanks, but I wouldn't have gone back out if you didn't come get me." I laugh a little. He chuckles awkwardly. I fiddle with my thumbs to seem somewhat occupied.

"Allie?" He asks. I look up from my thumbs. "Why are you living with me?"

Sharp pain, not physical but emotional pain shot through me. I could have saved them. I could have saved her. I could have saved them. I could have not been so selfish. But I didn't save them, I saved no one, I was selfish.

"Allie, are you okay?" He asks.

"What?" I snap out of my trance.

"You're really pale."

"Uh yeah I'm okay."

"Was it the question? Too soon? Did I hit a nerve?"

"Hitting a nerve would mean an angry person. I wouldn't say I'm angry." I snarl, realizing I was now angry.

"I would. I can see it in your eyes. You aren't angry at me, you are angry at yourself."

"And you are a jerk so get out of my freaking way before I make you." I finish. Jake slowly steps out of my way and I walk to the front of the bus and sit on the ground, in front of the seats with our gear on them.

I put my head between my legs and breathe.

"What the fuck? Is she on her period or something?" I hear Hunter say. It was no longer quiet on the bus, it was filled with chatter.

I actually wasn't, I was just on the verge of a mental breakdown. Not the way the teachers say they will have a mental breakdown if we don't shut up, no. This will be the mental breakdown where I 'accidentally' murder someone.

"Allison?" I hear someone. I cover my face with my hair.

Next thing I know I feel someone roughly push me towards the wall of the bus. I whip my eyes open and realize it's my 'ex'.

"I say something to you, you respond. Got it?" He snaps at me and gets closer to me. Unfortunately no one could see us.

"Got it, girlfriend?!" He yells, picks me up, and slams me down again. Now I am lying on the ground and he is on top of me.

"I told you, Hunter, I broke up with you." I take a deep breath to scream but before I can get a noise out he slams his hand over my mouth.

"Nope, you are dating me. It's our deal, or your 'secret' is out." He snarls.

Hunter than removes his hand to kiss me. Before he can, I scream. And it was pretty loud if you ask me. Apparently Hunter thought so too, because he covered his ears. Then he roughly grabbed my face and tried to kiss me again. I ripped my face out of his hands and he and I crashed heads, hard.