another lifeline

save?

'I'm sorry sir, we were not able to wake her up.'

'Whatt?!'

Simon spoke out.

I felt the ground under my feet disappear.

My knees became weak and I sank to the floor.

Lou and Zayn both grabbed one of my arms when my knees hit the floor.

'She's in a coma now.'

Coma, coma, coma, coma, coma, coma.

I tried to make my mind clear but I wasn't succeding.

Coma, coma, coma, coma, coma.

Not yet dead.

I tried to listen what else he was saying.

'But we have to get the baby now, or it will die.'

'Then what are you waiting for?' Simon spoke, hois voice almost numb.

'We need approvement of the guardian, there's a chance Aria won't survive the operation.'

I was almost blinded by my tears.

I couldn't control myself as I broke down.

Aria or the baby? 

Did we have to choose?

Just a chance she would die, but a chance.

There wasn't even certainty she would wake up.

What now?

I couldn't choose.

I thought I would always choose her.

But what if she would die anyway and there was a chance I could still keep her baby as a memory to her.

No, I couldn't think like that.

She can't die.

She just can't.

'Sir, we need to operate quick.'

I looked up, trough my tears I saw Simon was looking at me.

I nodded.

'Don't loose her.'

The docter nodded, 'We'll try.'

And with that he disappeared again.

When he left it caused a new shock wave.

Had I just agreed to kill her?

Would she die because of me?

All these thoughts ran trough my mind but I wasn't able to think well about them.

I felt completely lost and broken.

There was one thing I was sure of, I couldn't loose her.

My whole life turned around her.

If I would loose her, my life would break in a million pieces, together with my heart.

I already felt these pieces breaking of, since the moment I saw her lying on that floor.

The only way to stop it, was see her awake.

Breathing.

It was only then I realized I was lying on the cold floor.

Curled up like a foetus.

Someone must've noticed cause I felt arms pick me up.

Trough the mist formed by my tears, I recognized Lou.

She took me to a bench and as she sat down, she drew me with her.

I put my head in her lap and she held me close like a little baby.

I was wetting her shirt, but she just let me.

I tried to look around for the others.

I noticed Eleanor and Louis sitting next to us.

Eleanor in the same position as me, held by Louis instead of Lou.

Zayn was on the phone with someone, and I saw some small tears running over his cheeck.

Niall had his head on Simons shoulder, why he was busy on his phone.

I saw even the almighty Simon Cowell had cried, his eyes were red.

Danielle and Liam were sitting on the ground, there back against the wall.

Danielle had her head on Liams shoulder while he had his arm around her and his head on top of hers.

We were all waiting and hoping for the same.

For a docter to come in andf tell us everything was fine.

We all hoped for even more, that he would also tell us, Aria had woken up.

I guess we were actualy all thinking that, cause we still didn't realize this was all real.

But we were all wrong.