Eighteen

Broken Promises

*the next morning*

I woke up, with a pounding head, puffy eyes because of crying last night, my heart feeling like its gonna give up..rather wanting to run away.

I looked into the mirror, my mascara which I barely wore was running down  my cheeks, my hair was messed up. The bags under my eyes made me look scarier than a zombie. I had 50shades of dark circles under my eyes. I looked terrible,not only looked but felt terrible too.

I went and freshened up. I washed away the pain that showed on my face. But I don't know if I could wash away the pain that lingered in my heart.

I walked to my closet. I took out a box. A big one. It had all the tshirts that I wore that belonged to Niall, his letters, a necklace he gave me a month ago that read "Forever and Always" some pictures of us.

I emptied them on the floor. They surrounded me in heaps. My mind thought to itself telling Niall.
its 5:36 a.m
I'm staring at the memories.
Our memories.
The necklace you gave me,
The tshirts I wore that were yours,
The letters,
Those stupid pictures of us.
I promised. I promised to keep these,
And you promised to stay.
Forever.
I kept mine, and you?
You forgot about yours.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. My mind took me back to the incident that happend when he promised he wouldn't leave me, never break any promises. And suddenly now, he was a mere string of broken promsises. Leading up to be the person, he once promised never to become.

I looked at the clock. I was early. I had an two and half hours for college. I don't know how I would face him today. Would I break or would I be in anger? Was I gonna move on or be stuck. Would I ever be able to forgive him? I wiped my tears. And put back the box.

I heard a knock on my door. I sighed and said," come in."

Kris came in with a tray that had toast and juice. "Eat this Merryl, you haven't eaten anything."

"No,kris I-I am not hungry..." I said.

"Hey, you are still upset..I know but you can't starve yourself right?" She said and hugged me.

"I-..I don't know what is happening to me. How will I face him?" I said looking at her.

"Hey, It is gonna be okay. Stay strong. I-..I actually went last night to talk to him. He wasn't listening. He was crying and not saying a word." Kris told me.

"So?" I asked trying my best to show like I din't care.

"Anyway..eat and get ready." Kris told me.

I nodded.

*later in college*

I entered and Niall seen me. He tried talking to me. His face had no glow, his eyes were puffy. I didn't talk to him.

"Merryl!" Niall stopped me.

"Niall,please..please go away!" I said controlling my tears.

"Please listen to me." He pleaded.

"No, I don't want to. I told you WE ARE DONE!!" I screamt it in his face. He froze in his position. Tears ran down as I paced faster. Oh these stupid tears and my feelings.

I knew I couldn't handle them. So I dedcided to skip college. I went back home. Someone knocked the door. I hoped it wasn't  Niall.

I opened and there stood Louis with a worried face.

I ran into his arms.

"Shh..shh its okay. Niall didn't mean to." He told me.

"If you're here to take his side please go away right now." I mumbled into his hug.

"No, no... I'm here for you." He said swaying us back and forth.

"What hurt me the most was, Niall did exactly what Nick had done. Except Nick was a total jerk." I told Louis.

Yes, Nick was my ex boyfriend if you forgot. We were together for three months before he acted a total jerk. He flirted with other girls,never called me his girlfriend. Once I caught him doing stuff with another girl. That day on I decided never to fall for a guy. Then came Niall like the calmness after a hurricane. He brought in the long lost light that was missing from the world of shadows that I was living. Niall did the same to me. Now I didn't know how was I gonna recover from this wound.

"You need not ruin your mood more by thinking of that douche bag okay? Nick was a nightmare. And I know Niall for a long time now. Not in his favour but Mer," he said cupping my face, "Niall would never hurt you on purpose. He loves you too much."

"I know. But I can never forgive him." I said.

"Try, we all have watched you guys. Trust me mer, I have never seen anyone so in love with each other. Don't let a silly mistake break you'll apart." Louis told me. I nodded. "I won't make any promises right now, But I'll think over it. For now, we are better off alone." I told him.

"I won't force you mer," He told me.

"Anyway,a week and half to go until Christmas break. I..I and Niall were to spend Christmas together. But thats not happening. So I think I'll just drive back home." I told him.

"Back home? I am coming too..Kate is anyway going to her hometown. So lets go together." Louis said.

I nodded. Soon later Louis left.

I decided to take a stroll. I put on my shoes and went down to the park. I watched the kids play. I sat on one of the swings. It recalled a very fond memory of Niall and me. How we came here chasing each other. How good it felt to feel like kids.

I sat there for a long time. Niall had called me but I cut the line. He messaged me saying,
From:Niall❤
Merryl, please listen, give me one chance to explain. Please.

I ignored and went home.
Kris and Harry had ordered pizza. Harry stayed the night. Actually we were up watching movie until 3 in the morning. It really made my mind off Niall.
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