It Started With A Kiss

Chapter 36: I'm doing this for your sake

Yato's POV

I kept on running, searching for her each and every city. But no luck. I stopped for a second, catching my breath yet I kept pushing myself, ignoring my accelerate pulse.

I went towards the riverbank. Panting, I saw a figure standing in front of the Sakura. I couldn't make out of who it was at first but as I quietly went to that figure, she was soaking wet.

"Hiyori..?" Was the first thing that popped into my head. She was startled when she heard me. She seemed lost in a daze but I can't help but wonder.. Where'd she go the whole night..?

She stood there, eyes covered on her bangs as she lowered her head. I slowly approached her when she jerked my hand away. My eyes widened at her reaction when I get a good look at her face.

Her eyes were swollen red and her cheeks were covered in tears as dark circles appeared under her eyes. Her nose was puffing red, looked as if she got a cold.

"Hiyo--" "What are you doing here?!" She shouted. Her voice was husky that it almost cracked. "You shouldn't be here.." "Why not..?" I took courage to ask. Her knees were shaking. Her whole body were soaking wet making herself shivering.

"Please don't..--" I wrapped my arms around her small body, letting herself fall weakly to me.

She tried to struggle her way out but I gripped her tighter. I don't care if she's wet. "Yato..." She whimpered. Her voice almost betrayed me. It sounded lost..afraid..

"Let me go Yato.." I heard muffing on my chest as she sniffed. I pressed my chin gently on her head. I went to her ear, whispering tenderly, "I can't let you go, Hiyori.."

I can't lose you again...

"Please..Yato..." I almost shivered when her coldness went towards mine. But I don't fucking care. Even though I'm wet from the rain, it doesn't matter. I wanted to hold her like this longer.

She stopped struggling for a minute. How I hate seeing her like this. Suffering. I wish this was all a nightmare. But no matter how hard I thought about it, every dream will become real.

I wish it hasn't

"You shouldn't be with me, Yato."

Time stopped when she mentioned those words. The whole world stopped. Everything was so quiet. I was so speechless yet I don't intend to let go of her.

"You can't...don't you see..?" She said. Part of me wanted to ask why but the other wanted to just stay.

I'm so foolish...

I could've sworn I heard whispering 'I'm doing this for your sake.' I don't how long we were standing like this. Minutes...or maybe hours had passed.

..that I caused you so much pain...

I rather take the blame..!

Hiyori's POV

I can't believe he's here. I want to tell him. I want to say it out loud. But I can't... I've shed a lot of tears...I couldn't tell him. I don't have the strength to do so..

If I tell him, he might leave me again. But if I don't, I would just put myself in danger.

I couldn't let go of the burden off my shoulders. I've been enduring long enough. I wish I could just scream... Just live a normal life like it used to.

Yato is the reason why I'm standing. I don't care if he is a God. Even if he is not human or cannot be seen, I still care for him. I don't want him to leave me again.

I don't want you to disappear.

I wanted this suffering to be all a dream. A nightmare. I wanted to just end this. I wanted to continue my life with them. I don't care if he is immortal. Even if I grow older, that's fine by me.

My life wouldn't be happier without you..

I don't want to cut our ties. Even if you are planning to, I refuse to accept!

Rain started to pour out again. Yato let go of me as he saw more coming out. He took my hand and ran to the tree as we stayed for shelter.

He took off his jacket and placed it on top of my head. I looked up. "You might catch a cold." I was about to answer back but under my breath, he took noticed of my face as I had been in the rain longer than him.

I silently took it and buried myself, wrapping my body as the wind flew by, making me shiver a bit.

He glanced at me as he scooted closer, wrapping his arms around my body. I gasped a little of what he did. I noticed his faint blush on his face as I did the same.

"The rain is getting heavier. It's best if we stay here for awhile."

I nodded in agreeement. I snugged into his chest, as I sniffed my favorite scent. It's so warm. How I miss being with him.

If I tell you, will you still love me..?

The rain won't stop. There were so many leaves that it was enough to protect us under the rain. Even though the grass was wet but somehow I don't care. I just simply ignore it.

He wrapped me closer. "Hiyori?" I look up. "Don't.ever.do that to me again. You understand?" His voice sounded hurt. Even though he kept his serious expression, it made me welled up into tears. Yet the rain let me..

Even if we're different, would you still accept me for who I am..?

I felt my heart almost clenched by his words. It seemed painful but it almost felt like a relief.

I couldn't fall asleep. I have to tell him before it's too late.

He let go of me as I sat up, leaning myself back on the tree.
I didn't look at him at first. I gripped the jacket further before I parted my lips. "Yato.."

He turned his fully attention to me, waiting for an answer. I briefly closed my eyes, biting my lip before turning towards him.

"...there's something you should know....".

I'm doing this for your sake..

When I looked into his eyes, his presence welcomed me. But inside of me was already shaking. I covered my mouth, fighting back my tears. I want to scream it all out, letting myself to just let it all go.

He has done so much for me. He made me happy. That he let my life be livelier again.

So why am I falling apart the fact that 'he' said that we cannot be together..?

You wouldn't want to believe. I don't want too either.

Your presence made me feel safe. Your aura's so warm that my problems were gone by the wind. And yet...I want to smile again like nothing even happened.

I wish we could be together...