Bully Me No More

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*RAIN*

As I walked through the school halls again I got anxious. I really wanted to see Roc. The first time I saw him was at lunch, but I was too scared to say anything so I went with Angie to the library. I discovered I had 4th and 5th period with him, but we didn't speak either time. I knew he saw me because he'd continuously look at me, but each time I would smile and he'd just turn away. He had every reason to be mad at me, but still...I didn't want him to be.

When the school day ended I ran around campus in search of him, but couldn't find him anywhere. I started my walk home and still didn't see him or anyone else along the way. I threw my bag angrily on my bed and paced back and forth. Could I do this? Could I let him ignore me and cut me out? No!

I searched through my still packed suitcase and pulled out the bag from a mall in New York. I changed out of my school clothes and into some sweats and a tank top.

"Mom, I wanna go see Roc." I told her.

"Ok. What's in the bag?"

"Some things I bought him while I was with dad."

"Oh." She smiled. "Alright, well don't stay out too late ok? You have school tommorow."

"I know I know. Love you, bye!"

I hugged her cheek and walked rather quickly to Roc's house. I warned myself that rejection was a possible outcome, but when his house came back into view I got too excited to think he wouldn't be happy to see me.

I knocked on the front door softly and smiled at his mom.

"Hi Ms.August. Is Roc here?"

"Mhm." She smiled. "Up in his room."

I ran up the stairs two at a time and slowly pushed open his door enough for me to slip inside.

"Roc?"

I looked towards his bed to see him asleeo and I gulped. For some reason I felt like I shouldn't have been in his room, so when I kicked off my slides and slipped into his bed I felt like I didn't belong there anymore. I put the bag down on the floor and played with the curls in his hair.