Taylor
"I'll be right back." Roman says standing up from the couch we were currently sitting on. I just give him a slight nod. We've been sitting here for the past two hours talking and I'm super tired. Don't get me wrong Roman is a interesting person and fun to talk to, but Calum has been in the back of mind the whole night. I'm going to go up to him and ask why he's avoiding me. I look down at my phone seeing it's midnight. I don't understand how people can do this for a long time, I just wanna go home and lay in my bed.
For some reason I have this big feeling to look over at the bodies dancing in the living room. I turn my head and see people grinding up against each other to a up beat song. My eyes find the guy that's been in my head all night. I smile seeing him, I just light up when I'm near him. But my smile instantly drops when I see him dancing with some brunette. It wasn't like normal dancing, her ass was grinding down on him. He had his hands on her hips as he was saying something into her ear. She turns her head and goes into kiss him. As soon as their lips touch I stand up. I feel like I'm going to get sick. Calum's eyes find mine and I feel tears forming. I push past people trying to find the front door.
I find it and open it and I practically run out of the place. There's still people in the front lawn; so I push past all those people with tears down my face. I feel so stupid for getting feelings for him. I knew he just liked to have casual things with girls, but I thought I was different. I chuckle out loud. Every girl thinks they're something special to a player. All he had to do was put on a show and I went for the bate. I walk down the sidewalk, not sure where I'm going but I need to get out of this place.
"Taylor!" I hear him call from behind me. I continue walking, not giving him any attention. "Taylor please stop." He begs. I just shake my head and I start walking faster.
I feel a hand grab my wrist stopping me from walking. I take a deep breath and turn around to face him. "Have you been crying?"
"Yeah." I look down at the ground.
"Why?" His voice cracks a bit.
"It's stupid." I mumble.
"Can you tell me why?"
I look up at him and he looks hurt; it confuses me a bit.
"You." I barley whisper.
"Me?"
I nod my head. He closes his eyes for a brief moment. He opens them slowly to meet my gaze. "How did I make you cry?"
"It doesn't matter." I pull my hand from his grip and continue walking away from him. "No, please don't walk away from me."
The way he pleas for me not to leave makes me stop. "Taylor I don't want you to cry."
"I don't want to cry either."
I hear him take a few more steps so he's right behind me. "Turn around please."
I slowly turn my body around, to look at him. "Please tell me why I made you upset."
"Well, lets start when you came to my house and you opened up to me a bit. Then you took me to eat pizza, and I was actually enjoying your company. Then you take me for a walk and we almost kiss. And you wanna know something Calum, I was starting to grow feelings for you. I like the person you are when you're with me, but I guess it was just an act."
He looks very surprised with my answer. "You have feelings for me?"
I nod my head slowly. I can't believe I just admitted that to him. "You can't."
"And you say things like that." I sigh.
We stand there for a moment in silence.
"Who is that girl you are with?"
"I just brought her because..." He trails.
"Because?"
"Because someone told me you were going with Roman, and you guys had had a thing."
So was this why he has been avoiding me all week? Then he brings this girl to make me jealous. "Why didn't you just ask me?"
"I don't know."
"Okay. Well I should go."
"Please don't."
"Calum I'm tired, cold, and I wanna go home." I run my hand through my hair, getting a bit frustrated.
"You can't like me in that way." He states.
"Fine I won't. Just leave me alone."
"But I want you to at the same time."
"What do you want?"
"I don't know."
I roll my eyes, of course he doesn't know.
"I'm a fucked up person okay? I'll bring you down. I'll ruin you and make you tired of me. I will fuck up and hurt you. I can't do that. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I caused that." He looks as if he's about to cry.
"Calum, why do you think this badly of your self?"
"It's just the truth."
"You won't."
"Yes I will."
"Stop saying that! I have feelings for you okay. And I can't help it and neither can you. I need you to stop putting yourself down like that. You're such an amazing person and I like you because of it."
"You don't understand."
"Make me understand."
He's making me really sad that he thinks this way about himself. Who did this to him? I thought he had some confidence. "You'll run as soon as you find out."
I can't take anymore of him talking so poorly. I wrap my arms around his torso tightly. He's caught off guard, clearly not expecting I would do this, but he wraps his arms around my waist. If someone were to see us they would probably think we were crazy, but I could care less. I like the feeling of being in his arms.
He slowly pulls away, but he places his forehead on mine. I open my eyes and stare into his. I really can't read his face. His fingers reach my cheeks; he lightly traces his finger tips over the skin. It causes goose bumps to rise every where on my skin. His breath fans over my face causing my heart beat to pick up. He tilts his head a bit; he catches my lips with his. I instantly melt into him. His bottom lips lifts a bit but comes back just under mine. His lips move against mine at a slow sensual pace. Every thing in me bursts with excitement. I've never felt something so passionate in my life. All the stress and sadness has drained out of my body, and I now feel warm and fuzzy. I feel his lips leave mine and I quickly open my eyes. He's panting a bit with a smile. "Let's go."
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After changing into shorts and a tank top I crawl into my comfy bed. Calum walks in with only a tight black pair of boxer briefs. I look away quickly knowing my cheeks are a bright red. You could literally see the outline of everything. He crawls in next to with a smirk. I shut off the lamp and lay my head down on the pillow. Calum's heat is radiating off of him making very warm. "Come here." He whispers grabbing my hands. I easily let him pull me towards him. I place my head on his chest, and I let my arm drape over his naked torso. His fingers are lightly rubbing my back. My eyes grow heavy and I close them.
"You're so beautiful, I have feelings for you." I think I hear Calum say, but it could have been a dream to.
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You make it sound so sweet, when you lie to me.
