Taylor
When I arrive home the sun was just rising; causing the sky to turn into a pink, orange, and blue mixture; It was honestly breath taking to see. Even though I could sit in the grass and watch it, I decided on going inside my house. Once I was inside, the kitchen light was on, which is weird because my mom usually turns all the lights off before bed. I enter the kitchen and the sight in front of my breaks my heart: my mom is sitting at the table with a empty bottle of wine in front of her. A half lit cigarette occupies her fingers as she takes a drag from it. I watched slowly as she exhaled the poison from her lungs.
"Mom?" I softly questioned. She turned her head to look at me: she looked so tired and beat down, this made my heart hurt for her.
"Taylor honey..." She slurred.
I walked over to the table and I helped her out of the chair. "Lets get you up to bed."
"Okay sweetie."
I placed my arm around her waist to steady her as we walked up the stairs. Once we reached her bedroom I placed her in her bed and pulled the blanket over her.
"Honey, when's your dad coming home?" After those words left her mouth my heart literally broke; tears started to well in my eyes.
"Dad's not coming home tonight."
She didn't answer me; but what did come out of her mouth was soft snores. I took that as a cue to exit the room and go to mine. I stripped my clothes off and headed into the shower. Tears continued to fall down my face as I think about my moms words. It made me sad that they weren't together, and I know people aren't always in love, but I feel like she's still so in love with him. It makes me think about my love life. I've only admitted to Ashton that I loved Calum. I know there's something there holding him, and I just want to be that person he can feel safe with, the way I do with him. We just have this connection when we're together; words aren't necessary at this moment, we can just feel it with one another, well at least I do. That's what makes my heart drop: I know I feel everything, but what about him? Does he feel like he can love me? Can he open to me?
I stopped the water and stopped my thoughts of doubting Calum. Last night was a step forward and I need to start feeling that way. I stepped out of the shower and wrap a towel around my body. Once in my bedroom I got changed into a comfy pair of shorts and a tank top. I plop onto my bed finally feeling the events from the night catching up to me. I closed me eyes for two seconds and I was out.
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A loud buzzing brought me out of my deep slumber. I groaned as I grabbed my phone and answered it without looking at it.
"Hello."
"Wake up sleepy head." Calum's deep voice came through, a smile was instantly set on my lips.
"I'm too tired." I yawned.
"It's one, I got lunch. Open the door." He hangs up before I could answer.
I climbed out of my warm bed and rush down my stairs; almost tripping on the last step. We really need to fix that I keep forgetting, and one day I'm going to fall and die.
I unlock my door and swing it open. I find a smiley Calum with a brown back and two smoothies.
"You're too cute." I say with a smile.
He smirks and gives me a swift kiss on my lips as he walks into my house. I close the door and lead the way to my room.
I plop down on my bed and wait for Calum to come. He enters my room and closes the door with his foot.
