Taylor
I haven't been talking to Calum lately after finding out my parents are getting a divorce. I was just so confident that they still loved each other, they just had some problems and my mom was just stressed and they would get through it. Today was probably one the worse days because my dad is moving his stuff out. "Taylor!" My mom calls from down stairs. I groan as I get out of my bed. I walk the slowest I can down stairs.
I find my mom and dad standing in the kitchen. My mom looks pissed off, while my dad looks upset. "Say goodbye." My mom crosses her arms. "Don't make it sound like I'm not going to see her." My dad snaps at her. She just gives him a stern look, he just sighs in response. I walk towards him and wrap my arms around him. He does the same instantly. I feel some tears leave my eyes; it's going to suck that he's not going to be around every day. "Don't cry darling. You can come on weekends whenever you want." He tries to soothe me, but it doesn't work what so ever. "Can I live with you?"
He sighs, "I'm afraid that can't happen."
I pull away from the hug slightly, "why?"
"Because your mom wants you here."
"You aren't going to fight to get me at all? It's also my choice, I only have until june and I'll be done school."
I can tell that he's processing the next words that are about to come out of his mouth. "You just moved into a new school." His arms are still around me as he rubs my back. His once green eyes that would bright up the room are now dull. His face holds a permanent frown from the stress, I'm guessing. "I want to live with you."
He opens his mouth to say something, but before anything could come out my mom beats him to it. "You can't okay!" She yells.
"Why!" I yell back.
"It just can't happen okay, so just drop it."
"I'm going to live with him and there's nothing you can do about it."
"Yes I can because I'm your actual mom." I'm a bit confused by what she means. I feel my dad tense at her words. "Marry.." My dad trails.
"What's that suppose to mean?"
"It means that I'm your real mom, and he isn't your real dad so you can't live with him."
As soon as those words leave her mouth, I feel as if everything crashes down on me. I feel his arms leave around my body as I back up away from him. The both of them. "What the fuck Marry!" My dad screams at her. "She had to know at some point."
"Taylor I love you okay. You may not be my DNA, but you are my daughter okay?"
Many different emotions are running through my body and I don't know how to deal with them. How could they keep such a big secret from me. Then who is my real my dad? Has he tried to contact my mom? Questions are flying everywhere in my brain. I just need to get out of here. I turn around and I walk out of the house without a word. I pull out my phone and I dial Calum's number.
--
I get into his car as soon as he pulls up to my house. "Just go." I mumble without looking at him. He doesn't question me, which I'm very thankful for. The vehicle starts moving down the road.
All I'm trying to do is process everything that just happened. How was he not my dad? I grew up with him, I looked up to him, like he was some hero. Where's my actual dad? I actually feel guilty for thinking about my real dad.
"Taylor." I turn my head to look at Calum. As soon as I see him I burst into tears. Calum pulls the car over, then embraces me into a hug.
I'm not sure how long I stay in his arms crying, but he just holds me there. He kisses my head every once in awhile, I couldn't be anymore grateful to have him right now. "Calum." My voice is very raw.
"Yes Taylor." His voice was so soft, making me melt.
"Thank you."
"Anything for you." He whispers.
I kiss the shoulder I've been crying on for I don't know how long. I just pull my head back so I can look at him. His eyes are full of worry, and I can't help but smile a bit.
"What?"
"You're so beautiful."
"You're the beautiful one." He leans down and places a small kiss on my lips.
"Are you going tell me what's wrong?"
"I found out that my dad isn't really my dad." I say quietly.
"I'm sorry Taylor."
"I just have many different emotions about the whole situation."
"Which is?"
"I'm mad, sad, and disappointed. I'm mad the way mom told me, she just blurted it out because she doesn't want me to go live with him. I'm sad because he's my world and I'm not even his. And I'm disappointed because I so badly want to be his, and I can't help but wonder who my real dad is." I put my head back on Calum's shoulder, if it was my choice I would stay here forever, just on his shoulder.
"Can I tell you something."
"Yes."
"You have every right to be mad at your mother, she had no right to do that. Second don't feel bad because you have questions about your actual dad, anyone would. Third, that man that's been there for you your whole life, in my book is your dad, no matter if he made you or not. He's the one that raised you, he was the one that was there for you."
He was right, yet again. I shouldn't feel like I want to be his, I am his. He's my dad and no one could change that, not even my mom.
"I don't know what I would without you Calum." I whisper.
I feel his grip tighten a bit around me. I just feel so safe in his arms. I know I've only known him for about a month, but it's the little things that make my feelings grow stronger for him.
"I want to take you somewhere this weekend."
I pull back to meet his gaze. "Where?"
"Just somewhere, to get away from this, okay?"
"Okay." A smile breaks on my face.
"Now lets get you back home. Talk to your dad?"
"I will."
--
I open the door to my house and my dad runs into the walk way. His eyes are red and puffy, he looks so broken and makes me cry. I engulf him into a hug, he lets a sigh in relief. "You're my dad, I love you." He hugs me tighter.
"You're my daughter, and I love you." He kisses the top of my head.
"I was so scared." He whispers.
"It's okay, nothing changes."
"You'll come to see me on weekends, you don't have to every weekend, and please stay in touch."
"Dad please don't worry, I will."
I know things from now on will never be the same, but nothing will change our relationship.
_________________________________________
You make it sound so sweet, when you lie to me.
