I don't know how to stop.
I can't stop feeling sick whenever you're talking to a girl... Every time I see you typing to a girl on your computer or phone. It could be about computer games, but I feel so sick I want to run away. I want to turn away and not look, but not seeing doesn't make me feel any better. It all makes me so uncomfortable. I never realized how bruised I am until now.
I can't ask you to stop talking to girls, I don't even want you to stop doing that. I want you to be able to talk to whoever you want. But that's where the trust issue comes in. I don't know what talking to whoever you want leads to. I wonder what you say when you know I can't see. Maybe you don't say anything wrong, keeping it friendly and causal. But I have no idea, so I don't know what to think.
How do I get it to stop? How do I get over it? I thought I was, but the pain I feel in my heart and the sickness that clings to my chest proves that I'm not.
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Read This When I'm Gone
Non-Fiction"And when you're sitting on the side of the road crying over what feels like the best god damn thing you ever had - well, at least you had it." Bear with me... This is quite the roller coaster ride, and that roller coaster ride is my relationship.
