It's all over.
What you did to me... the ultimate betrayal. You single handedly destroyed five years of you and me. You took my trust and threw it away. You ruined everything.
I'm sitting here, anxiety filling every part of my body, shaking. I can't comprehend it. I can't understand how you could do this to me, to us. You've done a lot of bad things over the years, but this beats everything else. How could you?
I fought for you. I ignored things I shouldn't have ignored. I made excuses for you and told them to myself constantly. All because I love you.
You couldn't even say sorry... you just sat there, couldn't even look at me. Probably ashamed, but no remorse. All I wanted was to hear you say, "I'm sorry". Instead you left me to sit there, crying into my hands, feeling like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I've never been so hurt.
Tomorrow I'll move my things out of the apartment. A part of me feels relieved that I won't have to live that way anymore. No more anxiety over you, no more wanting to escape...
I just can't believe it's over.
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Read This When I'm Gone
Non-Fiction"And when you're sitting on the side of the road crying over what feels like the best god damn thing you ever had - well, at least you had it." Bear with me... This is quite the roller coaster ride, and that roller coaster ride is my relationship.
