On the Road Again || Luke Hemmings

Part Twenty-Eight

I woke up feeling awfully sick to my stomach. And to make matters worse, all throughout the night i was tossing and turning in bed because of it. So, i didnt get much sleep at all. I swiftly shut off my alarm before it woke Luke up, and quietly crawled out of bed. I grabbed some clean clothes out of my dresser and ran to the bathroom.

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When i was done getting ready, i walked out of the bathroom and saw that Luke was still curled up on my bed. I giggled slightly and went over and grabbed my bookbag from beside my bed. I leaned over and kissed Lukes cheek, watching a smile spread across his face, still fast asleep. I took my phone off of its charger and headed downstairs. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed and granola bar and sat down, considering i still had plenty of time before school. I heard a door knob jiggle a bit, and looked up as my brother walked out of the other bathroom. "Arent you going to be late?" I asked him, looking at the time. 6:50am. "Yup. But oh well. Garys not gonna give a shit," He laughed. "Why havent you left yet?" He asked. "Uhm, well unlike you Nick, i dont have to be at school at 7." I sassed. "Okay, jesus, i dont need the attitude." He groaned and i just shrugged. "Alright well i gotta go. Have fun at school. And dont forget to take your medicine!" He called before walking out the door. My stomach instantly went into knots. My medicine. My anit-depressants. I picked up the small bottle and took a pill out. I havent been taking my medicine for the past couple weeks. I know, not a smart move. Especially since its been fucking up my head. I should really take it, but it also doesnt help. I sighed, getting up from my chair and walking towards the front door. I walked out, locking the door behind me, then going to my car. I drove out of the driveway, feeling empty, leaving my house, and leaving the pill in the trash.

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It was 5th period and the entire day had been a constant battle between me and my thoughts. I still felt very nauseous, so i finally decided it would be best to just go to the nurse and try to get sent home early. I grabbed my passbook out of my bag and walked up to my teacher. "Can i go to the nurse?." I asked and he nodded. "Skipping out on my class i see." He laughed and i just shook my head, laughing along slightly. "Nah, i just dont feel well." I shrugged and he nodded again, handing me back my passbook. I muttered a small thanks before quickly shuffling out of the classroom, or "jazzersized" as my friend Brandon would say. When i got to the nurses office i signed in and sat down, surprisingly only having to wait about 2 minutes before being called back. "So whats wrong dear?" Ms. Walker asked. "Ive been sick to my stomach all day." I responded. "Did you eat breakfast?" She asked and i nodded. "And lunch?" I nodded again. "Well do you think you can make it through the rest of the day?" This time i shook my head no. She pursed her lips before nodding and pulling a white piece of paper out of the desk droor. Success.

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I unlocked my front door and walked in, throwing my bag on the rocking chair. I went and put my dogs out for a few minutes before bringing them back in and heading upstairs. I pushed my door open, feeling disappointed that Lukes not here. I forgot that him and Calum made plans to hang out today. And he probably wont be back until around 5, since thats when Emily gets done work. I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and checked the time. 12:26. I debated whether or not i should text Luke. I sighed loudly, deciding against it since he hasnt really had any guy time since he came here. So i decided id back off. I layed down on my bed, and grabbed my charger, plugging my phone in. I went into my music and played my "Slowy" playlist. Almost three songs in and i felt myself begin to drift off.

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I woke up to the sound of my front door slamming and my dogs barking. I groaned, and glanced over at my clock. 5:07. I soon heard footsteps running up the stairs and watched as my door swung open. "Hiiii baby!" Luke cheered, rushing over to the bed and laying down next to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer into him, placing a soft kiss on my lips, letting them mold together. He pulled back, nuzzling his face into the crook of my neck and began placing small kisses there. "Hi Lukey." I slurred, still very tired. He lifted his head and looked down at me. "I missed you. How long have you been asleep sweetie?" He asked and i shrugged. "Uhm, since like 12:30 i guess." I said and he widened his eyes at me. "Why did you come home so early? What happened? Are you alrig-" "Luke im fine. Stop rambling," I giggled. "The nurse sent me home early because i didnt feel well. Thats all." I said. "Well why didnt you call me? I wouldve came right back home to take care of you and cuddle you." He frowned. "I just didnt want to impose and ruin your time with Calum." I stated and he kissed my forehead. "Well that was very sweet of you, but you couldve texted me, you know Calum wouldnt have minded. He would do the same if it was Emily." He said and i nodded. "But now that i am here, im going to cuddle you until you feel better. But first, im going to run downstairs and grab you some advil. I'll be right back." He smiled, pecking my lips before leaving the room. I layed for a few minutes before seeing Luke come into my room once again, this time with and angry yet sad look on his face. I furrowed my eyebrows and sat up. "Luke whats wrong?" I asked and he just shook his head. "Why were your anti-depressants in the trash?" He asked sternly and i suddenly felt like i couldnt breathe. "I-I dont k-know." I stuttered. Fuck. "Please dont lie to me." He pleaded, sitting down on the bed next to me. "Im so sorry Luke," I started, feeling the tears rush down my cheeks. "The medicine just doesnt work. This is the third one ive tried and still no changes. Im still miserable. Whats the point in taking a pill that isnt even helping me. If anything im just getting worse. More and more unhappy by the second." Luke brought my face in his hands and brushed my tears away with his thumbs. "I just dont get it," He mumbled. "What happened that made you become so unhappy? When did you lose your happiness Amanda?" He asked and i shook my head. "I dont know. The only bit of happiness ive ever felt was when i met you, and whenever im with you. You've helped me to bring out my true self, the happy girl that my friends used to know. The girl that actually loved being alive." I said, whispering the last part. "I cant lose you Lukey." I cried and he pulled me into his embrace, kissing my cheek. "Oh penguin, you're never going to lose me. I'll fucking make sure of it. I told you before Amanda, you're it for me. Im never letting go. I promise."

(:| hiiii! kinda long update i guess? kinda sad update too. soz. but anyway, exciting news! my best friend, calsgalpal19 , is writing a little book of her own based on this story! its basically the same as "On the Road Again" except its from Emily and Calums point of view with her own twist on it of course. her story is called "Beside You" and i would really love it if you guys checked it out. its honestly really good so far and im very proud of her. so yeah, hope you liked this update and make sure you check out Beside You. (-:

~hemmos_giggle <3  |:)