*Luke's POV*
It is now 1 in the morning. Amanda is fast asleep in my arms. I, on the other hand, am looking through her mentions once again. Reading tweet after tweet. I can feel the lump building in my throat. Why? Why are people so fucking cruel? What has she done to any of them? Date me? Have me fall in love with her? Because out of all other girls, shes the one that caught my attention? If those are the reasons, then that is truly pathetic. And for them to bring up her scars? Ridiculous. How was that even fair? She just became 4 months clean, and now im afraid that shes going to start up again. No. Scratch that. Im terrified.
*Amanda's POV*
I woke up to see Luke no longer beside me. I sat up, stretched my arms, and hopped out of the bunk. I walked into the lounge and no one was there. I checked all the bunks, the bathroom, the back. I was the only one on the bus. I looked out the window and saw that we were in the parking lot of a WalMart. I sighed, and quickly threw on a pair of jeans. I grabbed my phone from out of the bunk and stepped out. As i walked into the store i decided to text Luke.
To Lukey🐧💋:
Hey baby. Where are you?
I pressed send and began searching through the different aisles. I must have lapped the entire store about twice. I couldnt find any of them anywhere. I checked my phone to see if Luke replied back yet. Nothing. But he did see it. Why wouldnt he message back though? I decided to walk around the store one more time before giving up. Finally, i spotted Luke over by the CD section. Oddly enough, with a girl attached to his side. I cautiously made my way over towards the two of them. "Uhm, hey Luke." I mumbled, loud enough for him to hear. His smile faded as he turned to face me. "Oh. Uh. Hey Amanda." He said. Just Amanda huh? No Penguin? I could feel my heart being squeezed. "So uh, who's this?" I asked, motioning towards the blonde girl next to him. "Uhm, can we talk for a minute?" He asked, completely ignoring my question. I nodded slowly as he apoligized to the girl, then dragged me outside to the bus. "Luke, whats going on?" I whispered and he sighed loudly. "I dont know Amanda. I just got to thinking. Maybe the fans are right, you know? Maybe you arent good enough for me." He stated. "W-what?" I stuttered. "Im breaking up with you Amanda." He said, emotionless. "Your stuff is already packed, and i booked you a flight back home. You leave in a few hours." And with that, he walked off the bus. I couldnt believe this. "But Luke!" I yelled after him and he turned around. "I love you! You cant do this!" I said, whispering the last part. "Then why did i just do it?" He asked and walked away. I turned around and collapsed on the floor of the bus. This cant be happening. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and decided to text Emily.
To Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
Em, Luke, he. He broke up with me. He booked me a flight and everything. Im going home.
I grabbed all my bags and set them next to me. I felt my phone vibrate and i looked down at it.
From Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
I know. But its for the best. We were all getting tired of you really.
What? With a shaky breathe, i texted her back.
To Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
What are you talking about?
From Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
You know, me, Deysi, the boys, we were all getting tired of you being around. Being depressed, always moping. It was annoying. I dont know how we all dealt with it for so long.
Tears were flowing down my cheeks as i wrote another reply.
To Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
Em, how could you say that? Im your bestfriend!
From Mrs. Hood☺️💋:
Were* you were my bestfriend. Not anymore.
And with that one message, i was done. I grabbed a napkin a began writing down a note.
"Dear everybody,
Im sorry you all had to deal with me for so long. Im sorry that i was depressed and was "moping" around all the time. Emily, im sorry that you had to call somebody as pathetic as me, your bestfriend. Deys, im sorry that you also had to be "friends" with me. Ashton, Calum, Mikey, im sorry that you had to be around me so much. I didnt mean to be annoying or anything. And Luke, im sorry that i fell in love with you. Im sorry that you had to date a broken girl. Im sorry that i stopped cutting for you. Im sorry that i tried my absolute hardest to not be depressed. Im sorry for everything. But mostly, im sorry that i actually believed that you loved me. I really am. But no worries. Im leaving, and you'll never have to see me again. I love you guys, even if you dont love me back. Bye.
Love, Amanda."
I placed the note of the small kitchen table, grabbed my bags, and left. I walked towards the nearest bus stop and sat down. So many voices were racing through my head as i waited for the bus to come.
They all left you
They said they would never leave you
They lied to you
You have no one
They all hate you
Luke never loved you
Your friends never liked you
Kill yourself
No one wants you
You're all alone
Silent sobs escaped my lips. And i looked up to see the bus in front of me. The voices were right. They were absolutely right.
"Im all alone."
(:| hiiii. this chapter was shit. im sorry. i'll update again soon! hopefully!
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On the Road Again || Luke Hemmings
Fanfiction"...you're it for me. You're all i want. Nothing could ever change that."
