Miracles in a Lifetime

CHAPTER 26 - Decisions X and X Holding On

Feitan's P.O.V.

After hearing the news of the boss, I had left the hideout to clear my head. My head felt like it was pounding with everything that was happening.

"What is happening to me?" Asking no one in particular.

I hated how I am slowly growing into an emotional being. Someone I had never thought I would become but here I am, feeling these weird emotions I buried away a long time ago.

Running faster, thinking that I was running away from my troubles, from my past. The wind felt cold on my cheeks and everything that passed by me was a blur.

Thinking I was far away enough, I came to an abrupt stop and fell to the ground. I felt the soft grass as my head made contact to it. The smell hit me and it somehow made me feel just a bit calmer.

My usual poker face loosens when I see the many stars in front of me. The lonesome moon didn't seem as solitude as the stars kept him company. The beautiful sight almost seemed unreal.

"Am I being this way because of that girl with those brats? No, I can't. She's also a brat and brats should just die in hell." I muttered but I felt a weird feeling inside me.

My heart felt like it was being squeezed. The air I was inhaling did not feel right. I twinge as if I was frightened of something. My stomach twisted and an urge to vomit came crashing down on me.

Images of that girl, yelling and screaming in the fires of hell flooded my mind like a tsunami. I hold onto my head harshly with tears brimming in my eyes.

"No! Stop it! Please!!" Begging but my mind did not give in to my pleas and continued showing horrid visions of that girl getting swallowed by the depths of hell. I fall to the ground, clutching onto my head with my tears finally escaping my eyes.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Please.....just stop it." And in an instant, the weird feeling stopped and my mind also cleared all the awful imagines of her dying.

Breathing hard to catch my breath that I didn't notice I was holding back, I gently place my hand on my forehead.

"What was that?" Glaring at the grass beneath me, thinking about how terrifying that feeling felt made me shiver in fright and disgust.

"I should head back to the hideout before Phinks notices then bothers me about it later on." Running once again to the hideout but was held back when I saw a glimpse of white hair inside a plane in an airport place.

Activating my Zetsu, I go closer and look into the window that allowed me to see the inside.

My eyes laid on a white haired woman hugging the chain user bastard. The two brats, the one with silver hair and the black haired brat were in there along with a rather old looking woman with buck teeth were also inside.

I had no idea that the girl had a relationship with that bastard. They looked so happy together that it made me feel envy. My eyes felt tears coming and I did not stop them from falling.

My heart squeezed and it hurt so bad. My head became dizzy and my whole body felt numb. It felt as if time stopped just for me to feel this pain longer. I've tortured many and I know how much it hurts but this feeling is as if I was being tortured in a rapid speed and the after feeling was unbearable and seemed to be unlasting. In an instant, I already concluded that I despised this emotion and I plan to get rid of it. I wipe away my tears rather harshly. My skin burned from the friction but I did not care at this moment.

Looking away from the happy couple would be the right solution but even though my eyes couldn't actually see it in front of me, I felt it in my heart and the image remained in my head.