Miracles in a Lifetime

CHAPTER 34 - Surprises X New Experiences

Kurapika's P.O.V.

"Kurapika, are you sure you're alright? Your heart beat is giving off a worried and panic rhythm." Melody stated with worry etched in her soft voice. I gave her a small smile as reassurance but it wavered a bit and it sure didn't go unnoticed.

A very strong feeling inside of me was telling me to go but I don't know where! I don't understand what my mind and heart are trying to tell me. Though, I'm pretty sure it relates to Tenshi because I keep dreaming about her lately. But it's more of a nightmare than a dream.

Tenshi would be smiling and giggling but she was not by my side. She was with another. It ached my heart with just the sight of it. The several images of her and that manly figure she was with made me boil in anger and jealousy but mostly betrayal though I know as a fact that she wouldn't do that. She is mine and I'm hers. We share similar feelings, I just know it!

"Please don't mind it. It's just a feeling." I said truthfully and Melody nods when she sees that I was telling her the truth.

"Just make sure to not overthink it. It's better to wait for the right time and find out. Overthinking isn't very healthy for one's health." I nod at the given advice and walked away to get some fresh air.

My feet led me to the balcony and the scenery immediately captivated me. The Nostrade family is a really rich family so the house was pretty huge and high up so the view was astonishing.

"Tenshi, please be safe and.....please don't give up on us." I whispered into the cold night that I had to once again sleep through alone....without Tenshi.

Tenshi's P.O.V.

ACHOO!

"Are you okay, Tenshi? That was the third time now." Shizuku said worriedly which I waved off with a small smile.

"Don't worry. Someone must be talking about me or something. Nothing special." I stated and I continued walking side by side with her.

"Tenshi-dono, you're the lady that accompanies my brother, are you not?" Kalluto asked with a serious look. I just look at the boy and nod, knowing that he was talking about Killua.

"Baka brother! He's so lucky!" He whispered and stomped off with an annoyed expression muttering some incoherent words about his brother getting everything.

"Hey, do you know what happened to the brat? He walked off with an angry expression on his bratty face." Feitan stated coming out of no where. Shizuku and I just shrug as a simple reply until I felt someone's hand on my arm.

"Shizuku, you wouldn't mind me taking Tenshi from you for a while right?" Feitan asked and left right after he got the okay from Shizuku. I don't get why he asked permission from her and not me. I'm not someone's property or anything but I guess he didn't realize that yet.

He continued to drag me away and I just had that deja vu moment since this is what he did during the times when we were strangers and we only knew each other's names.

"Where are you taking me this time, Feitan?" I asked a bit teasingly as we stopped in a clear area a few miles away from the group.

"Tch." He clicked his tongue and I suddenly felt warmth envelope my body. Feitan was hugging me and I saw the crimson color brushed onto his ear tips and found it quite cute. I knew as a fact that I was also blushing a deep red on my pale cheeks.

"I just wanted to hug you in my arms again... so be quiet and let me do what I want." He muttered. I just let him because his hugs were warm and comforting. I don't know what came over me but I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face into his warm chest.

I felt him tense up so I was about to let go but Feitan suddenly hugged me tighter and buried his nose into the crook of my neck, inhaling and let out a sigh of content.

"I have not idea why but your scent of roses and vanilla always calms me down." He whispered into my ear causing me to shudder. I felt him smirk and he snuggled closer to me.

A blush was painted onto my cheeks but it felt nice. His scent also calmed me down. It was a type of manly scent that men use as a cologne and let me tell you...it smells really good.

We stayed in that position, just drowning in each other's embraces and warmth. I felt so at peace and so protected with his arms around me. I also felt....loved. It was such a warm and fluffy feeling that I had felt in the arms of Kurapika...

Kurapika.

Why did that feel so foreign? It's been long since I've seen or heard about him. I miss him. His cat-like eyes and his soft blonde hair. That sunflower smell that wifted my nose every time he embraces me in those warm yet strong arms of his that proved his hatred towards the Spiders and his strong will to avenge his kin. The lingering spark of anger and fear in his eyes that never failed to soften my look on him. His soft lips that I've always been wanting to feel on top of my own pair of lips...

Why was I blindly thinking of Kurapika when I was in another man's embrace? I don't know and I'm not sure why. I am stuck between these boys who show love and affection towards me who is a worthless person to fall in love with. I would be a bad lover. You won't know when I will leave and dissappear or if my love is real or not. I am like a mystery to boys and I liked it that way but I also see boys as a puzzle too.

They are beings that think differently than girls like me. They are beings who take things lightly except until they have reached a certain point in their lives in where they will start to hold a grudge like Kurapika. He must've been carefree like any other boy until an incident so bad and traumatic made him hold such a great hatred. Girls are the same but small things can hurt us so much no one knows when because we girls try to hide it or some girls show it through their different actions.

Their species is foreign to us, girls. We are different yet we fall in love with each other. I have always wondered why when I was little and was still held captive by Ryoko. I only had that one book Ryoko kept in the torture room. It was about a man and woman falling in love with each other even when they are not allowed to. It was strange but I now understand.

I shouldn't be falling in love with Feitan. No...

I shouldn't be falling in love with two different guys. Am I what people call a slut, a whore? I didn't know and I certainly didn't want that. I despised such an idea but I didn't know what to think. Everything is so new...

That I hated it.

New feelings scare me and new experiences make me feel like my life has been kept in the dark. Nothing made sense in the beginning so how do you claim that you understand it now?

"Tenshi, shall we go?" I flinch a little in shock as Feitan shook me softly. He chuckled at my action and I immediately blushed.

"Don't go daydreaming on me now, Tenshi. I want to keep your full attention on me." He said a bit jokingly but I saw the seriousness in his eyes. I smiled a bit towards him and started walking towards where I felt the Spiders' aura and Feitan followed not long after.

"Wait. Something is missing." I heard Feitan mutter so I turn around with a confused expression only to receive something unexpected.

Feitan. The infamous thief who doesn't like to talk and loves to torture.

The thief who had just took my first kiss.

His lips were so soft on mine and warm but it left in an instant. My eyes were wide open in shock as Feitan was trying to sink his head deeper into his mask. His ears were red at the tips as he tried to look somewhere else.

"Let's go."