evanescent

six

"Should we check on him?", she said walking toward the door. It was the right thing for both of us to go in and check if he was okay but I just wanted to go alone.

"I'll go, Sienna. Just getting going home", I told her and she seemed confused. I was probably making everything too obvious. She would assume I was interested in him or talking to him just because of the initiative I was taking in this situation.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I'm sure hes fine but I'll check. you just go", i said. she finally agreed to leave and let me check on harry alone so we shared a goodbye hug and she walked away. once i couldnt see her anymore i walked into harry's classroom.

I looked around and everything seemed just fine. All the chairs were in the same spot, the room was clean, and Harry's things were all in their place. The sound had definitely came from this room but I have no idea what exactly happened. 

"Mr. Styles", I called out. It was odd calling him that again and not Harry but I didn't want to give him the idea that he was "my Harry" again. He came out of a storage room door near the white board and just looked at me for a second before going up and erasing the writing on the board.

"You know you can call me Harry", he said sitting down at his desk and I followed him standing in front of the computer.

"I know."

The room was oddly silent, the only thing you could hear was the both of us breathing which I hated. I wanted to ask if he was okay or what the noise that came from the room was but I was nervous. He had always made me nervous and I hated that. I knew I was strong enough to handle whatever Harry was about to do but just being around him made me nervous.

"What do you want?", he asked," Clearly you don't want me so what are you doing in here?"

"I-I was wondering if you were okay. I heard something come from your room and I just wanted to check on you", I asked nervously. He really knew how to make it sting so he could and would attack me for anything at this point. 

"So you still do care about me?", he said and I shook my head.

"No, its not like that", I said and he started smirking and shaking his head.

"I think it is. You come back in my room just to check if I'm okay, which I clearly am AND you try and drop my class just to get away from me."

"How did you know about that?", I asked. I was embarrassed that he knew about that, he didn't need to. Me wanting to leave his class was something that I was my decision. It didn't need to involve him.

"I just do okay. Don't worry so much", he said smiling. He knew I worried a lot so he was going to keep telling me to stop worrying. When we were first together, I tried to never worry because I felt like I never needed to when I was with him. I was foolishly and so carefree in love with him that I thought bad things would never happen and there was no reason to worry. 

"Well, you're okay so I'm going to go now", I said walking quickly away but he grabbed my wrist and turned me back around to look at him. We stared at each other for a few seconds. His eyes were just as green and beautiful as I remembered. His lips crashed into mine, trying to make me love him again. I pushed him off of me. I wiped his kiss off my lips disgusted that he would come at me like that. 

"What the fuck was that?", I screamed walking away from him.

"I miss you, Daisy. I think about you everyday."

"Shut up", I said and he just looked at me with desperation in his eyes. I honestly couldn't bare to hear about how much he missed me. I had missed him a little at first over the summer after our break up and he lost his job but I moved on. I had to grown up and I had also fallen in love with Niall. I did miss him too but he had to move on just like I did and I hated to hear that he was so hung up.

"I miss your smile and I miss the sexual things you'd do with me and I miss the way you'd play with my hair. I have been with other girls after you but none of them were the same as you. I never realized how amazing you made me feel until I couldn't have you anymore."

"I don't want to hear it, Harry. I moved on I'm with Niall. I love him and I have him and he is everything to me-"

"I don't want to fucking hear that", he said punching the table nearest to him," I fucking loved you. I still fucking love you and you are with that little blonde fuck."

I was completely ready to leave the room. I didn't need to listen to a jealous man say these things about Niall. But there was something that made me want to stay. There was a piece of me that wanted to hear the things he said.

"I don't want to say I'm sorry because I'm not", I told him and he just stood there. We stood there again and I had no idea how to react. He looked sad and innocent with tears welling in his eyes. The tears falling down his face made me emotional and feel guilty but I knew I had done nothing wrong.

"See you around, Harry", I said and walked over to him kissing him on the check. He let me kiss him so gentily and i liked that for once him and i could share something so innocent and sweet. It was something I felt like I needed to do for him, almost like it was a goodbye kiss from me to him.

"See ya", he says and I feel like he hoped I would turn around but I didn't. i just kept walking. I walked out of the room, through the schools campus, and to my car. Once I got inside, I just cried. I hated seeing a person in such an emotional state it didn't matter if it was Harry or some random stranger. Seeing so much pain in a person was horrible. Seeing him like that over me made me want to make amends with him. It made me feel like he was different. But as my crying calmed down I remembered the state Harry put me and the way he treated me while I was under aged and was able to snap out of it.

If I Could Fly// One Direction