evanescent

twenty nine

I had made the decision to stay home for the rest of the break and finish out the last semester of college. I had the motivation in me to finish it, even though I was dreading going back it was the right thing to do. I needed my independence and finishing school would benefit that. I also was applying for jobs like crazy because now more than ever I needed the money. I was going to live at home for a while but once I got on my feet I needed to move out, I would go insane if I didn't. My parents lived close enough to the school but it would be a lot driving there and back each 

"Your dad is really excited to have you back in the house."

My mom walked into my room as I began to put my things together and make the room my own. I had a lot of things, a lot of clothes, and I have no idea how I fit all of this into Niall's apartment. I was happy to have all this space as my own though, to decorate and be alone in. I liked living in a place without my parents but it never felt like it was mine. It reflected more of Niall than it did me and I hated that. 

"I'm not that excited to see him unfortunately", I said and my mom gave me a soft smirk. I loved him as my father and I appreciated him but I just couldn't believe the state of the relationship he had with my mom. It was going to be hard to bite my tongue, I wanted so badly to call him out but it wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth ruining Christmas over, the one holiday we were all together for. 

"We'll it's the holidays so let's just not worry about that. You're brother will be here too which is nice. I never see Trevor anymore", my mom began and she was right. Christmas was in a week and I had to push all those things aside for the sake of my family. Plus, this was the only time we got to see Trevor. He was a workaholic and never came home for small things, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day was all we got from him. 

"I'll let you be", my Mom said getting off the bed, "I'm just glad to have you here, Daisy. I missed you a lot and I'm sorry for the parent I used to be. I don't thing I ever really appreciated all that you are as my daughter."

She left the room and shut the door behind her, I didn't say a word but once the door shut I started to cry. The time I had spent at home since my break up with Niall was a million times different than it was when I was a teenager. I had felt love and openness from her as a parent in ways I never thought I would get from her. I could hang out with her and be exactly myself and not worry. I could get used to her like this and it was nice. To notice the change in my mother and the comfort I felt in my own home was life changing. 

The crying didn't last long, just a few tears of relief as I finished putting some clothes away and laid on the bed. 

Harry:  I have a question for you.

Daisy: Shoot.

Harry: I want to see you soon. 

Harry: Like today, or multiple times this week. Whenever you are free.

Harry: And I have a question for you that I would rather ask in person. 

Daisy: I'm free now actually. I want to see you and I need to get out of the house.

Harry: I can be there in 10 is everything okay?

Daisy: Yeah I'm fine. 

I was fine, just bored and had a lot on my mind. The holidays were stressing me out and being here with my mom just made me want to cry now, full of love that I wasn't used to. I was happy here in ways that I had never known and I wanted to escape that. I can't block this emotions out but I just wanted to forget about it for a moment. I threw on a hoddie and some shoes before heading downstairs to wait for Harry.

"I'm going to hang out with Harry", I let my mom know, grabbing a water bottle and throwing it into my bag.

"You don't have to tell me, do your thing", she said and I nodded. Every young adult felt like they had to keep their parents in touch with what they were doing if they were still living with them. 

"I want to meet him", she began, " I really do, Daisy. He makes you happy and I am just interested. With how things happened I'd like to know where his head."

"I can talk to him about it", I asked as I went towards the door to leave and walked out. She smiled at me and it was odd. I knew she had my best interest in heart and I saw that now more than ever but it was odd. Mixing the part of my life that was Harry and my home life would be weird. Why would I mix these two lives when Harry and I were not even official. We were just friends now and that was it, there was no pushing anything.

"You seem stressed", Harry said bringing his hand up to my face to rub the lines on my forehead away. "Everything alright?"

"My mom is being nicer than she ever was my whole childhood and she is wants to meet you so badly. I never thought she would want that."

"What did you tell her about me?", Harry says sounding really harsh and kind of defensive, as if I was telling her bad things and she was getting the wrong idea of who he was now.

"Only good things."

"I couldn't imagine it being anything amazing", he said in a low tone and I looked at him confused.