evanescent

thirty

"Why would you say that?"

"I just can't imagine your mother thinking only good things about me. I'm the grown man who stole her daughter's innocence and kept it all in secret. If I were a parent, I would hate a guy like me."

"She has changed a lot since then", It hurt me when he said stuff like this because I knew he was angry with himself and I never had an idea of how to react.

"Doesn't matter."

"She wants to get to know you, and if you don't want to I understand but she sees the little things and I know at this point in her life she is open to second chances. When I first started talking about you to her again she noticed how much happier I was talking about you and being around you than I was Niall."

"I don't know, Daisy", he began, "It's not that I don't want to get to know your family, it's just a lot of guilt that I hold. It's a lot and I am worried that you and I view this relationship a lot differently. I just don't want to lose you. I'm happy that I make you happy, though." 

"How do you think I view the relationship?"

I had to know what Harry wanted out of this and where he thought things were going. Harry had been very sure of the fact that he wanted to take things slow. He never wanted to rush into us being anything and all of a sudden he was talking about us like he wanted more. It was scary but inviting and I had to know what exactly was holding him back. I had to know what he thought about us and where his head was at. If we were both in different places than who knows if we should even be friends anymore.

"I don't know. I just know that I want a lot of things with you and I don't want to tie you down being so young. I have changed a lot and I have learned that I just want stability and forever in someone and I don't want to attach myself if you aren't ready for something so serious. I don't want to put energy into a relationship if you aren't on the same page as me."

"I want that and if you want that with me I would give everything up for you."

"Don't say that, because you don't have to give up anything to be in love with me. I want you to have it all and get to love me at the same time."

"Sorry", I said and he shook his head, looking over at me with a smile on his face.

"Don't apologize. At least I know you are serious about me. I want to be with you so badly, Daisy. I can't wait until the day where you and I can live together and be official, I just don't want to rush into this. We have all the time in the world."

Harry pulled into a parking spot at the mall, after looking for at least 15 minutes. It was last minute Christmas shopping. Harry needed to get gifts for all of his family members and he had no idea what to get them. He was hoping that I could help him decide on something nice for all the women in his family. He also had to get a gift for Niall and he wanted me to force him to get him something. He felt like Niall wasn't deserving of a gift, I agreed but we both agreed it was the right thing to do. 

The mall was packed and neither of us had any idea where to start. I had the majority of my shopping done and I couldn't imagine waiting this long to get gifts for the people closest to me. The longer I waited to get gifts the more it stressed me out.

Harry's hand was locked in mine as we walked in and out of stores and I loved this feeling. There were a lot of people here and he wanted to be seen with me. He wanted people to know that I was with him and I wasn't used to that kind of action with him. It made my heart swell and it was just one of those gestures that showed me how serious he was about me. 

"Perfume and jewelry are easy gifts. Jewelry is also really heartfelt so it's kind of perfect", I began as we walked into a crowded jewelry store. I had never owned any nice jewelry because I felt like it was a materialistic thing. I liked jewelry but never understood why people spent so much money on it. 

"This?", Harry said pointing at a dainty bracelet with a bunch of really small charms on it, subtle diamonds placed in some spots. It was the kind of thing you could wear everyday and not feel to flashy wearing because it was so lightweight and simple. 

"That's beautiful", I said and he smiled, nodded a little and walked away. He continued to look around at all of the jewelry before he decided on two different necklaces for his mom and sister. 

"I think those are so beautiful. Such good choices", I said as we walked out of the store.

"Hopefully", he said and we continued to walk in the direction of a store that we might be able to find a gift for Niall. Harry still didn't feel like getting a gift for Niall but I convinced him he had to, he had to be the bigger person in the situation.

"Can I ask you a question?", Harry said and I nodded.

"And it's weird, you don't have to say yes and I understand totally if you say no I just want to ask and I think it would be really nice if you said yes."

"Just ask, I said annoyed. 

"Will you come to my families Christmas dinner with me?"