School // j.g. c.c.

Thirty Four

Camila

Kissing Jack felt like everything was right in the world again, like fate brought us back together after so many times.

Letting him leave me was one of the biggest mistakes I've made and I really did treat him badly recently.

I still regret saying those horrible things and I would do anything for him to have never been in that accident.

But he remembered a memory yesterday, he has to remember more.

I bet he does.

I smiled to myself thinking of yesterday.

Maybe kissing him was a little rushed but I was so happy I couldn't contain the excitement of him maybe gaining his memory all back again.

Today is graduation day, my final memory of high school is today.

Even Jack gets to graduate, I'm so happy for him.

"Are you ready?" Dinah asked.

I nodded looking at myself in the mirror.

I looked different, A good different.

As I stood staring at myself in the mirror, I realized senior year was possibly one of hardest but favorite year of high school.

I found somebody, somebody who I really love.

And I over came so many obstacles and became a stronger person.

Before the this year started I hated myself, God I hated myself. There were days I didn't get out of bed and faked a smile, I isolated myself and wanted to die more than anything else in the world.

Now, I've learned that I think I really do love myself now and when I smile it's because I actually am happy. Now, I don't even think of killing myself or ever again.

-

"We are officially out of high school!" Johnson cheered.

"Hey." Jack awkwardly scratched the back of his neck.

This is the first time I've spoken to him since last night and he seems off.

"Can we talk? Alone?" He quickly glanced at our group of friends and then looked back at me.

I nodded and we began walking with no destination.

"I just wanted to say goodbye." Jack looked at me.

I furrowed my eyebrows and looked back at him.

"I'm taking your advice Camila, I'm going to New York." I stopped walking and was completely blindsided.

"What?" I asked making sure I heard him right.

"I found an acceptance letter on my dresser to NYU, I'm taking your advice and going. Isn't this what I was planning on doing before my accident?" He asked.

I stood froze.

"Isn't this....what you wanted?" He furrowed his eyebrows.

"No. Y-you can't just leave Jack."

"Camila you said last night you think I should go, I thought about it and-and I think it's what's best for me."

"But what about your memory and-and me." I felt my heart begin to slowly sink.

"I'm sure I'll remember one day, but you said last night-"

"I said those things last night because I-I didn't think-"

"You didn't think I was ever going to remember?" He slowly furrowed his eyebrows, filling my sentence.

"Not its not that-"

"That's exactly what it is Camila. You-you never believed I would remember again did you?" He asked, almost sounding disappointed.

"Jack-"

"You never believed in me. God, no one does anymore. I'm sick of being treated like a little kid I-I graduated high school and I'm going to NYU to prove that I can do this on my own-"

"This is what all this is about? You don't like being treated like everyone cares about you?"

"This is all about how I am going to prove you all I can do things by myself. I'm going to graduate college at NYU whether you like it or not."

"But what all about last night, does that mean nothing to you now?"

"You kissed me Camila. I didn't ask for you to kiss me and-and you're the one who told me I should go, now you're saying I can't?" He asked, building up with anger.

Tears began to fill my eyes and I just stared into Jacks eyes, not being able to collect any of my thoughts into words.

"I'm only doing what you told me to." He added.

"Fuck you, after everything that's happened your just going to leave me."

"You told me to go! You said it was best for me and now I think so too!" He yelled. "This is not my fault your crying, all you did was set yourself up for this. If you really cared about me you would encourage me to go, not hold me back." He waited for an answer from me but I didn't have one.

"God stop looking at me like that, like this is my fault. This was all your idea, you should be happy for me." He sighed and quickly looked away and then back at me.

"I have to go pack or I'm going to miss my flight." He looked around behind me and then back into my eyes.

"If you really care, and you really love me Camila you'll say goodbye to me at my flight gate, it's gate B23."

I didn't say anything, and then Jack just left.

-

Jack

My leg bounced up and down in my seat and I looked down at my watch.

I looked up and Johnson was standing in front of me.

"Just thought I'd come say goodbye." He half smiled.

I stood up and hugged him.

"Do you know if Camila is coming?" I asked looking around.

"I don't think she is." He frowned.

"Oh."

"I'll come visit in a few weeks, maybe I'll get her to come with. I'm sorry this is how this are happening with you two."

I shrugged, "It's okay."

"But hey, there's plenty of girls in New York right?" He chuckled.

"Flight 12 is now boarding." I heard over the intercom.

"I have to go, see you in a few weeks." I waved Johnson goodbye.

Here I come New York.

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OMG IM SO SORRY THAT THIS UPDATE TOOK MONTHS IVE BEEN SO BUSY BUT I AM BACK I FEEL SO BAD FOR TAKING FORVER TO WRITE

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