Words

Why are You Here? (Poem)

I don't understand and will never try to

I don't want anything to owe you

But since you looked at me straight in the eyes,

I might be willing to be tricked twice or thrice.

More or less, I've been deceived

By you; no one else could be

Yet, no matter how many times I've been tricked,

I'll trust you over and over again, believe me.

In this convoluted world where cruelty reigns,

I have found you; I should be the one to blame

I should've ignored you; I should've walked pass through

I should've hidden inside the cage; so lonely, so blue

Yet, here I am, searching for light

Trying to choose between fight or flight

But you held me in your arms; so tight

Holding me 'til the darkness of the night

That curve on your lips; your laughter

It just makes my day go brighter

But that smile deceived me;

Now I have seen everything clearly

You hated me but didn't say anything

You've never trusted me with a single thing

Now, I'm wondering you are here,

When you couldn't even see my tears

Why don't you lend me your ears?

I want to tell you my weaknesses, my fears

Why couldn't you listen; why are you even here?

Look at my face, glistening with tears

You say you'll be staying by my side;

You'll accept me for who I am, but are you blind?

You said you know me but was that a lie?

You didn't even see how frightened I am to look at the sky

Look at my smiling face and tell me;

"Is that smile real? Are you hiding something?

Come on, you can tell me anything.

Everything would turn out the way it used to be.

You don't need to change; you don't have to

Just be the way you always do

Kick me, punch me, stab me with your words,

I'll still be here even if you use a sword."

If you tell me those sweet-nothing words, I'd cry,

I won't believe you no matter how hard you try

You can't even see a single tear in my eye

You can't even see through my lies

Didn't you know how sad I am?

I've been awake since 2 am

Thinking why I exist; why I try too hard;

To live even when my soul is scarred

Is it my fault to be wrong most of the time?

Is it not okay when I'm not fine?

Am I not good enough that I reached the end of the line?

Couldn't you hear my heart's melancholic chime?

Now, I'm pushing you away; leave me be

I thought you would still stay and see through me

But you walked away, not giving me a chance

I'm slowly giving up on myself but you didn't see

"Goodbye," I whispered softly

As I watch you walk away slowly

'Turn around!' I screamed silently

But you didn't hear; I stood there hopelessly

Now, I'm all alone; here in the dark

I knew in my life you would leave not a mark

But a scar so deep, I couldn't even breathe

Because you pierced right through my heart.

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YEAH! XD

SamanthaB.