smell the roses | j.j.k

23

December 3rd

I thought being around you was hard then, it was so much harder now. I tried to act normal, and I think I was succeeding. But you were weird.

Your words were jumbled. You were jittery around me. You avoided eye contact. You avoided any contact at all.

There was too many awkward silences to count.

In that moment I wished you had never kissed me. I wish you hadn't given me the rose. I felt like this barrier was being built around us.

Why is it that once I got what I wanted, I almost didn't want it. I just wanted you. Not this boy who refused to glance in my direction.

I felt like I had done something wrong. I felt like suddenly I had screwed everything up. This was a bad idea. I made you awkward around me and it was excruciating.

I missed my best friend. You had his face and everything, but I felt almost like I had the plague.

I just wanted my Jeon Jungkook back.