I woke up to the sun shining through my window, into my room.
I let Michael go drinking with his friends last night, so I was alone.
Decided, to go to Michaels place and get him some breakfast and Starbucks, because he is probably hung-over.
I quickly got dressed and did my hair and make-up, and took my car keys.
When I arrived at Michaels place, I went in, without knocking. It was kind of our thing.
I put the coffee and breakfast on the kitchen table and went upstairs.
Someone's heels were outside of his room and the door was closed.
Weird...
I opened the door and I felt, how tears started dripping down from my cheeks.
"Michael?" I whispered as I cried
"Michael!" I screamed now, as I got really mad.
"What, the fuck Michael?" I was breathless and he finally woke up.
"Babe, I can explain..."
"No, fuck you!"
The girl woke up and looked around confused.
I rushed out of my room and I heard Michael coming after me and talking, but I didn't her what he said.
It was all just a big blur for me.
I sat in my car and drove.
I had no idea, where to go. I needed to talk with someone.
Luke!
He has been there for me lately.
I drove to his house and knocked on the door.
Liz, his mother came to the door, she was the most sweetest and kindest woman, I know.
"Hey darling, are you alright?"
"yeah, I came to see Luke, is he home?"
"Sure, come in, he is in his room"
"Thank you Liz"
I cracked a smile when I looked at Liz's warm smile.
I wish that I had a mom like she.
As I walked upstairs, the tears started falling down from my face again.
I knocked on his door and he opened the door, looking sleepy and confused.
"I'm sorry if I woke you up..."
"No, it's okay. What happened, Mary?"
he asked with concern, as he invited me in.
I stepped in and talked to him, as he hugged me and told me that everything is going to be alright.
MICHAELS POV LAST NIGHT
"hey, where's Mary?" Luke asked, as I walked in to the bar alone
"She didn't feel that good and she told me to come alone."
"Oh okay"
We did some shots and drank Whiskey, when I noticed one blond girl looking at me.
"She is totally checking you out, Michael" Luke said as he punched my shoulder.
"Yeah, I don't care, I have Mary, I love her and I'm happy with her."
Calum, Ashton and Bry said:"awww" at the same time.
"Come on, try something new. I mean, don't you get tired of her?"
"No, Luke, I love her."
We took a lot of shots and drank beer and next thing I noticed, was the blonde girl standing next to me.
"Hey hottie, mind, if I sit here?"
"Um, sure"
She sat next to me and tried to small talk.
"Hey, your blonde friend told me, that you're interested in me"
"Um..."
"It's okay, let's go back to your place maybe?"
I was too drunk, to fight back so I just went with her and drove to my place.
I woke up to Mary crying and saying my name angrily.
I opened my eyes and I remembered everything.
"Babe, I can explain"
"No, Fuck you!"
She ran out of the room
I went after her yelling.
"Mary, I love you, babe, please, wait!"
Everything seemed so helpless.
The blonde girl sneaked quietly out, hoping, that I wouldn't notice her.
I did, but I made a face, like I didn't.
I went to my bathroom and took out the razor blade.
"Just few cuts... I'm sorry..."
I talked with myself.
I pushed the blade into my wrist and pulled.
3 new cuts.
After 3 months clean.
I'm weak.
