Dark Liam {Liam Payne}

Chapter Thirty - Two

Evelyn's pov

* a week later  *

I feel a tear slip from my eyes. I'm standing next to Liam, who still hasn't woken up. I look at him and he is isn't moving, except from his chest, which is rising and falling. I grab his hand.

"Li.. They say that people in a coma can hear you, so here I am. Talking to you, while you're not even responding. But I don't mind, because it's better than nothing. 

Your mum keeps me company every day. She's fine, by the way. She is sad about you, though. So am I. I miss you Li. But your mum, I've never seen her like this. She isn't bubbly. She isn't happy. She's just, I don't know, down, sad. I hate seeing her like this. I hate that she has to be alone right now. It must be terrible, alone at home, without you. Liam, just, make her happy again. 

I think I need to tell you a lot about everything that happened. God, I thought it was all a dream. I thought it never happened. But it did. Thom.. Yea, what do I say about Thom ? Thom raped me. Thom stalked all of us. Thom killed my friend and my parents. Thom tried to kill your mum. And then he tired to kill Danielle. Which he should've done, by the way. Then you wouldn't be here.

Also, Danielle is dead. Your mum killed her, actually. When you were shot and when Danielle shot me, your mum attacked her and shot her. So, we're done with her as well. She can't hurt us anymore. They're both dead. And yes, I realize that Tyler is still alive, but he never did anything, right ? He just didn't stop them. 

Amy brings me KFC, every day. I think it's the best part of my day. I'm getting fat, though. 

Niall gave me a heart attack. He told me you were dead. He meant coma. He explained himself though. He told me that he saw you right before they all went to me. You looked so pale, that Niall thought you were dead, eventhough the doctor said you weren't. He can't stop thinking about you, in a normal way. He isn't into you or anyhthing. God, this is going nowhere.

Anyway, Li, I miss you, so much. But I need to say a few things I've been thinking about.

This is all my fault. I brought everyone in danger. If I never came into your life, this never would've happened. I mean, they went after me. If you and I never met, my parents would've been alive, Amber would've been alive. Cassie and Mason would've had their baby. Harry would've had his love in his life. You would've been home, with your mum, without any trouble. But instead, my parents are dead, Amber is dead, the baby is dead and Harry is alone. And you're here. I don't even know if you're going to make it. The doctors don't know if you're going to make it. But Liam, you need too.

Not for me, but for your mum. She needs you. And believe me, I need you. But you don't need me. I only bring trouble in your life. I can only get you killed. Liam, when Danielle came, I thought you were dead. I cried, so much. I can't remember what my last thought was, but I know what I dreamt. A perfect life, with you. But you and I both know that that's not going to happen. 

This will haunt us, forever. We won't get away from it. It will always be a part of our lifes. We can keep fighting, but Liam, I don't want you to fight. I want you to be happy.

You deserve so much more in life. You deserve a girlfriend that doesn't bring trouble. You deserve a new start. Your mum does too. And I don't think I can give you the happiness you deserve. Li, I love you so much. But, I just. I don't know. 

As you can hear, I've been thinking a lot. Weird things. Things I shouldn't be thinking, but I can't help it. I think I just miss you. I need you. So much. I just hope you wake up soon, because I don't know how long your mum and I are gonna take it. We need you, Li. And please, never forget that I love you so fucking much. See, I cursed, because you made me. Wake up soon, please.

I'm going to leave you now, gotta get some rest. I'll come back, every day, until you wake up. I love you" I get up and whipe my tears away. I can't believe I've been talking to Liam for so long. And all those things I said. God, I can't believe I said those things. I walk out of the room, leaving Liam alone. I walk into my room and see the usual bucket of chicken on my night stand. I smile and grab one. I sit down on my bed and take out my phone. I open Instagram and post a new picture. It's a picture of Liam and me, a few months ago. I put up a caption and smile.

I love this boy so much. But I miss him even more. Please come back to me <3 

I see people liking it, but I smile when I see Eleanor, Cassie, Amy, Mason, Niall, Louis and Harry liking it. I smile and scroll through my feed. I see a picture of Cassie and Mason together and I like it. And then I see a picture of Amy and Niall.

It took a while, but we finally admitted our feelings for each other. #Namy <3 

I get a smile on my face and hit the like button. I comment saying they're cute and close the instagram app. I put my phone away and lay my head back. I'm really in need of some rest. I close my eyes and try to throw my thoughts out of my head. But it's hard. I'm half a heart right now. Liam is the other half of my heart, but I don't know if I want him to be with me. He'll never be as happy as he can be. 

But I think I should first wait if he wakes up and then make up my mind. But first, I need sleep.

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Hiiii :)) 

Sooooo, two weeks ago, I had a talk at the company I wanted to do my internship at. I wanted it so badly, but I got the call today that I didn't get it and I cried, mostly because of all the stress coming out. Anyway, this is such an emotional chapter, especially the first half. But, I hope you all like this chapter ! 

Soooo, vote and comment what you think ;)

xxx Pascalle <3