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Chapter 82

We're packing our gear up for the road; long, peaceful days for Glenn to constantly pester me for an answer.

His mournful glances are enough on their own, the 'have you thought about it yet?' Questions are too much for me to handle.

Of course I've fucking thought about it, it's all I've been thinking about for the last three days.

I mean on the run we went on yesterday we went past a bridal store and he almost jumped out the fucking car.

He picked up a dress when he thought I wasn't looking.

I can't say no, but I don't know if I want to say yes. The evil little parts of my brain are fighting me in order to make a decision with themselves, and I'm not even thinking past my involvement in this, let alone Max or Daisy's involvement.

Fuck.

At least I'm out on the road again, the group is gathering supplies right now.

And I'm as far away from Glenn as I can get.

I'm as far away from everyone as I can get.

In total fucking peace... Just me and my thoughts.

But even they're a burden...

I wish I knew what I wanted, because there is so much of me that wants a family... And there's another big part of me that wants freedom.
There's a part of me that wants no man... And then there is the other part of me that so desperately wants Glenn... And there's that part of me that wants every man.

All of me, I can safely say, is very confused. This is the only part I'm certain of.

"So..." A voice wings from behind me and startles me out of my wits.

I raise my gun only to have it knocked out of my hands by Michonne.

I breath out, realising I forgot to, and calm myself down, which makes Michonne chuckle.

"You decided what you're doing yet?" She asks me as she starts along the road, walking to god knows where with our rag-tag group of borderline sociopaths.

"Do I really need to answer that?" I quip back, cutting off the proposal-answer-talk as quickly as possible.

"If it's of any interest to you, I would marry Glenn if I was in your position." She tells me nonchalantly, not even acknowledging the fact that she just revealed part of herself. This is quite the emotional breakthrough for the girl.

"I'm not sure." I stammer back at her.

"Let me help you; do you love Glenn?"

"Yeah."

"Is your quality of life with Glenn good?"

"... Yeah."

"Does he meet your physical needs?"

"Yeah."

"Emotional needs?"

"Mostly."

"If you answered yes to all/most of these questions, you should marry Glenn." She announces like a quiz show host.

"It's not that simple..."

"Don't be stupid, Ruby. It really is that simple. Don't dramatise and over complicate things"

"I'm not an emotional one-trick-pony! I need freedom, space, adventure!"

"You're being stupid."

"No, I'm being honest with myself, I'm not happy."

Michonne turns to me, her expression registering a vaguely angry heir.

"We don't have this sort of luxury, Ruby, if you hadn't noticed and honestly the group is in shambles. So if you just buckled down, and admit to everyone that you truly do love Glenn and want to marry him, it would be much easier for everyone involved." She sighs before abruptly taking off ahead of me.

A/N~

Hey babes I am so sorry that it has taken this long to write a new chapter it's just my mental health was in a bad place and school (in Australia) has just started back up again and I'm doing it tough in my final year so this little hobby is taking a break. I'm gonna write more often, I promise!

Just stay with me for now, ciao bellas!